My poor wife has been catching hell from her co-workers from having to miss work the last few days to help me with my illness. Thankfully there are 3 people there that seem to understand but the rest just frankly do not have a clue and they need to buy one in the worst way.
Here is a quick and dirty summary of the situation/problems that I am in right now:
1). I have a nasty little brain disorder gnome which consists of a balance of bipolar and schizophrenia with whom I get to "play around with."
2). Because of said illness I have trouble sticking with jobs for very long or even finding jobs.
(a). Also because of said illness I am limited to the types of jobs that I can even look for.
3). I am totally overwhelmed with this paralegal program and I am dropping assignments left and right. I can drop out of school but then we have to pay back the loan money that we were living off of immediately. Thus, without a job that scenary is not workable.
4). I am almost guaranteed disability but it takes some 6 months or longer to be able to get on disability so in the mean time we would be screwed financially. Even IF I could find a decent job there is no guarantee that I could hold on to it and HAVING a job probably would disqualify me for disability!! It's a vicious circle that I can not seem to escape from and you can imagine what all of this "spinning in circles" is doing to my mental state!! :/
What a mess huh??
Well, anyway. This one lady who works with my wife has always basically been totally unsympathetic when it comes to my illness. I get the impression that she doesn't even believe that people have brain disorders!! Either that or she just says that a person is fine if they just take their medications.
I have taken 10 different medications in trying to just "deal" with the SYMPTOMS of this major brain disorder. There is no fucking miracle "cure all" pill like this lady is implying. These medications can basically only help treat the SYMPTOMS of the illness and even then you are having to constantly "tweek" with them. Anyway, then this lady goes on to tell my wife that if we are in such dire need of money then why don't I just go out and get one of the "less desireable" jobs!! This made my wife and I both furious. She obviously does not understand that as a person trying to deal with schizoaffective disorder you can not just take any job. Plus, there is a REASON why those jobs are called "less diserable." Mainly, because people who do not even HAVE a major brain disorder do not like the jobs, do not want them and in a lot of cases can not do them. So how in the FUCK is someone like me going to be able to do some high stress, "less desireable" job.
There seem to be a lot of people out there who just do not have a fucking clue when it comes to brain disorders. They think that they know more then the doctors even who have been through extensive training on the brain and brain disorders not to mention years and years of experience in working with people who suffer from these disorders! These are the same people who just can not seem to put themselves (or care to) in other people's "shoes" and empathize at least with their situation. This reminds me of a theatre professor who told me (to my face after I had missed class due to my illness one day) that brain disorders "do not exist" and that in fact the entire field of psychology is basically unnecessary. Pretty amazing to me how many people think that way.
Anyway, I am glad that you all understand the situation and can sympathize/empathize with what we are going through right now. Your love and support and thoughts are being heard, MUCH appreciated and I am taking them all to heart. I am so SO thankful to have such a wonderful support network like you all. Thank-you dearly from the bottom of my heart.