Friday, December 31, 2004

2004: The Year in Review

Here we are at the end of 2004 so I have put together a list of some of the highlights (and low-lights) of the year. I have also included some of my "favorites" throughout 2004 to show how I lived and enjoyed the year.

Top 5 News Stories of 2004:
1). The Tsunami disaster in Asia
2). The Iraqi War (especially not finding any WMD's)
3). Ukraine election
4). The Olympics
5). "Election" of George W. Bush (the shock heard around the world).

Top 5 Movies:
1). I Heart Huckabees
2). Fahrenheit 911
3). Meet the Fockers
4). The Terminal
5). The Motorcycle Diaries

*Honorable mention: The Incredibles

Favorite Beer of 2004: Corona Light (w/ a lime wedge of course).

Favorite Mixed Drink of 2004: Tie between Vodka Tonic and 7&7

Favorite Dessert of 2004: Pistachio Almond (you must try this is you haven't).

Favorite Activity of 2004: Tie between painting and blogging.

Favorite Medication of 2004: Ativan. This stuff is AWESOME!! :)

Favorite Blog of 2004: This one has to go to, "Everything Is Wrong With Me."

Favorite Incense of 2004: Frankincense

Favorite Sports Moment of 2004: Hands down the Boston Red Sox winning the national title.

Favorite Political Moment of 2004: Sen. John Kerry mopping up the floor with GWB in the debates.

Worst Political Moment of 2004: Some 59 million Americans voting for Bush. Some of those votes I am still convinced were stolen via the infamous, "paperless" electronic voting machines.

Man of 2004: The U.S. military guy who challenged Defense Secretary Rumsfeld about not having adequate armor during a Q and A in Iraq. That took some serious nuggets.

Woman of 2004: ALL of the wonderful women in my life. You know who you are. I worship you all.

Athlete of 2004: Lance Armstrong for winning his recond 6th Tour de France in a row.

Heroes of 2004: John Kerry, Howard Dean, Dennis Kucinich, the U.S. military (and other militaries from around the world) still fighting in GWB's hoax of a war and Air America radio for battling the right-wing rhetoric.

Villians of 2004: George W. Bush, Donald Rumsfeld and Darth Cheney. Oops, I mean Dick Cheney. Hehe. Halliburton, the many and vast terrorist organizations and of course the great tsunami of 2004.

What scares me most about 2005?: Living another 4 years under W's thumb.

What am I looking forward to in 2005?: Making more memories with my friends.

Well, that about wraps up my review. I am going over to party with some friends for NYE tonight and I do mean party. Thus, I probably won't write again until sunday (do of course to the expectant NYE hang-over). Then again I might crawl into the captain's chair for a bit to rattle off some more non-sense if the sound of typing isn't too painfully loud. :) And so my friends we head off into another year. I am grateful to be alive for yet another unpredictable year. I wish you all a happy, healthy and prosperous new year.

I love you all.

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Thursday, December 30, 2004

Tibetan Incense, Nepalese Music, Meet the Fockers and Crack Pizza


Holiday traffic is totally insane. It seems like everyone has two weeks of for the holidays or something because there is an insane amount of cars on the road. Really too many cars for crowds of people hopped up on sugar and gift cards. The amazing thing is that I have been doing most of the driving around town and I have handled the congestion quite well I must admit. Except for the occasional "shit" and "JESUS!!" I have really remained calm as a "Hindu cow" (Quick!!! What movie is that line from? See bottom of post for the answer*). Anyway, I digress. I think that the added Seroquel has helped with handling the holiday mayhem.

Speaking of Hindu cows. We went to the Nepal-Tibet Import store in Old Town today. This is one of my favorite shops around. It is a tiny shop that is crowded with Buddhas, Hindu Gods, Tibetan/Nepalese/Indian clothing and is always rocking some sweet vibe music. Today we were going to pick up the essential incense: Amber and Frankencense but they were out of Frankencense. Instead we picked up some Jasmine, Lavender, Patchouli and Clove. Heard this mellow and mystical music playing in the shop while shopping around and I asked the guy about it. Well, the gist of it is that I ended up buying this c.d. and I love it. The group is "Trikaal" and the disc is called, "Past, Present and Future." If you like mellow Indian music then I would say check it out for sure.

After shopping we headed over to the movie theatre to watch, "Meet the Fockers." It was a great movie. I laughed my ass off from beginning to end. I was a little leary since I didn't much like the first one, "Meet the Parents" but this one was great. I think that Dustan Hoffman made this movie but Streisand and Robert DaNeiro were great as well. I'm glad too because we struck out on our first two movies: "Life Aquatic" and "Lemony Snickets." Snickets just didn't have much of a plot I thought but Jim Carrey stole the show as usual. If it wasn't for him this movie would have probably gone straight to video. It's too bad too because I had such high hopes for this one. I did like the dark style of the movie though. Kind of a Tim Burten feel to it and I just can't say enough about Tim Burton's style (Edward Scissorhands anyone? Plus, I can't wait for Charlie and the Chocolate Factory).

Anyway, the pizza is ticklin' my nostrils so I'm going to leave you all for now. Pepperonit and Salami from Papa Murphy's "Take and Bake." My new favorite pizza place. A quick description for those who haven't heard of this lovely establishment. You go and make your own pizza basically by telling them what you want on your pie and they make it up and then you go home and bake it. This is a lot cheaper and it tastes like heaven. I don't quite know why it tastes so damn good but i'm formulating a theory that they put crack in it. I don't really care much though. Crack, heroin, whatever. Bring it on.

*Fight Club.

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Wednesday, December 29, 2004

The Tsunami's and the Museum

I think we have all been stunned by the numbers killed in the deadly Tsunami's. The latest update that I have seen was that more then 76,700 people have been killed. The International Red Cross said that the number could easily go above 100,000. That is just a mind-blowing number. That is about the total of people that live in my entire city! Now they are talking about some 1 million other people without homes. That is like the entire population of Denver, CO which is our capital city. Homeless.

I am pretty sure that this is the worst disaster that I have seen in my lifetime. It is a sobering reminder that we are such fragile creatures who's lives can be snuffed out in a moment. It is a reminder to live each day to the fullest and to tell those who mean the most to you that you adore them. So, I wanted to take some time right now and tell you how much I adore and love you all. Thank-you for your friendships and the support that you offer me. It means so very much. The wife and I donated some money to the International Red Cross and I would urge all of you to donate a little money to one of these organizations. This is a time for the world to come together and show how interconnected we really are. First of all, donate. Then pray/meditate or just think about how precious our lives are. Give some one an extra hug today. Here's one from me to you all: ((((((hug))))))

Well, shifting gears a bit, we went to the Denver Museum of Nature and Science yesterday to view an egyptian exhibit and watch an IMAX movie titled the, "Mysteries of Egypt." The exhibit was kind of lame. Most of the stuff looked fake and it was stuff that just didn't really stand out. It was cool to see the history behind it all though. I did like the coffin lids that they had on display, so very detailed. Although I must admit that I really liked the jewelry that they had on display. Very stunning. I was also impressed with the Hawk-headed statues of Horus. Being that he is part hawk and part human I really like Horus. Some of you might remember that the Hawk/Falcon Eagle is my main animal guide. I have a very strong connection to Ancient Egyptian religious beliefs, icons and practices. Maybe I was an Egyptian priest in a past life, who knows. Anyway, the IMAX movie was way cool. It was fun to be able to feel like you were actually in some of those historic sites.

That was basically it. We drove home (in some wicked traffic I might add.) and then had a few beers and went to bed.

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Tuesday, December 28, 2004

The Goddess

Work in progress but I am nearly finished. This image is of course under copyright and is the sole property of the artist, James R. Ure. It may not be used or reproduced without the expressed written consent of the artist. Posted by Hello

Monday, December 27, 2004

The beautiful Lotus flower rises out of the mud and water to bloom and express it's divine perfection, beauty and balance. Posted by Hello

Sunday, December 26, 2004

Plugged In

Not much to report.

Saw the movie "The Life Aquatic with Steve Zissou" with Bill Murray today. I love Bill but this movie was the worst of 2004.

Right now?

I'm plugged into the Source, riding the lightning and painting like a madman. I'm even using my fingers to work on the shadows in this one. Hope there is no paint on the keyboard but it is too late for all that now. I'm past the point of no return deposit. Should have some "work in progress" images to show you tomorrow so stay tuned. I am really nervous about this painting because it is specifically for my sister. I think it is spot on with what she wants but only time will tell.

With much manic frenzied love and all that psychosis...I remain your friend in arms (arms of love)....
-jaymes :)

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My Religion

"My religion consists of a humble admiration of the illimitable superior spirit who reveals himself in the slight details we are able to perceive with our frail and feeble mind."

-Albert Einstein

P.S.--Thank you all for the holiday cheer. I hope you all had a wonderful day yesterday too!

Friday, December 24, 2004

So This is Christmas

Well, the 5mg of Lexapro is too much I think. I was bouncing off the ceiling yesterday. I was seeing all kinds of pretty colors like you would in a kaleidoscope. So, today I am taking half a pill and seeing how that goes. So far I'm not too jittery but I just barely too it so we'll see. The Seroquel might be a bigger problem though. It works great in cutting out the noise and paranoia etc. but I feel so sedated and my brain is so sloooooowwwwwwww. I don't really have much of an inner monologue. My brain just totally checks out and it makes it difficult to converse with people. Lani have you noticed these problems and what dose are you on now?
I might have to call the pdoc and have him tweek with the dosage.

Well, today is Christmas Eve and the wife and I are going over to my sister's house. My parents will be there as well so I hope things aren't awkward with the drinking business. My sister told them that we would be drinking and yet they still want to come so we'll see how things go. I hope we get to watch, "It's a Wonderful Life." Thats the only Christmas movie that I like to watch. I usually watch it every year on Christmas Eve. The other Christmas movie that I like is Christmas Vacation. What a riot of a movie.

Anyway, not much on my mind right now (Seroquel afterall). So, let me just wish everyone a Merry Christmas if I don't get the chance to post tomorrow. I love you all and wish you nothing but the best. I hope that 2005 makes you all millionaires and finds you in healthy and happy places.


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Wednesday, December 22, 2004

Seroquel, Lexapro, Car Alarm and My Entourage

Not much going on today. I went to the pdoc and he changed up my meds a bit and I'm not sure how I feel about it. I'm off the Celexa now and going with 5mg of Lexapro. I guess the Lexapro is a little bit stronger since I've been depressed still. Then he'd added Seroquel 300mg in addition to the Risperdal because I'm fucking loosing it with the paranoia and hallucinations ( come I don't get hallucinations of naked women? I also get annoying noises and loud colors/images). Now that I'm taking two anti-psychotic meds (Risperdal and Seroquel) I might start sounding like a child in my posts, i.e. Saying stuff like, "Me happy...(drools on keyboard) and playing constantly with myself (Oh wait. I already do that. Hey, at least I haven't grown hair on my hands and gone blind like I was told I would if I polished the rocket as a kid.)

Anyyyyyway. On with the show.

I was in the parking lot of the pdoc after my appointment and I was going to call my wife concerning this new prescription. Just before I dialed her I locked myself into the car using the key pad with the keys already in the ignition. I did this because I'm a freak and totally paranoid. Anyway, I proceeded to talk to her on the phone and then hung up. I went to start the car and the goddamn alarm went off. I was so anxious and on edge that I bolted straight up in the air like a goddamn cat. I fevorishly hit the panic button on the key pad but the damn thing kept going off. Now, at this point I was seriously considering walking away down the street like I didn't own the car but I knew my wife wouldn't like that idea so I hung in there and kept hitting every botton on the key pad. I was even hitting buttons I new in had nothing to do with the problem. I was turning on the radio, the heat, the wipers, EVERYTHING!! So, there I was sitting in this car with the wipers, radio, heat and everything else going all while the horn was screaming.

FINALLY it shut off and I managed to peel myself off the ceiling of the car. So, then I went to start the engine and the alarm went off AGAIN!! This is the point when I seriously thought about throwing myself out into on-coming traffic to get out of this horrific situation. I could hear people up above in the apartments talking and yelling and I think I managed to get dogs barking all over town. My paranoia bit harder into my brain and I figured these people were planning on killing me. Seriously.

Another thing I considered was hot-wiring the car but I also realized that I did not know how to do that so I was fucked. I don't know what happened at that point because I think I left my body or totally blacked out but when I came to again the horn was off and I somehow got the car started without problem. I promptly sped off but my heart was exploding and my genitals had crawled up into my nasal cavities.

Good god. I'm shaking like a crack head just writing this all out. Goddamn no wonder I need 5 different medications just to drag my ass out of bed and get out the door. Well, getting out the door on a regular basis will probably require draggin around an I.V. of Valium, Ecstacy and Red Bull. Now that you mention it these are the following people I would need in my "entourage:" (this is probably misspelled but ya know what? At this point it doesn't really matter if you get annoyed with me for misspelling a word. Especially since I've told you just about every personal/private thing in my life. If you think I'm a freak show, psycho then you've probably moved on already so fuck it).

Anyway, on with the list: My wife, my lawyer, a nurse, a body guard, some bass ass rappers,* my shrink, a drug dealer,* My cool postman Diego, at least one midget,* a cop (to calm people when I begin to play with myself and smell my ear wax in public) and Jenna Jameson*

*These people are probably not critical for me leaving the door on a regular basis. I just feel that they must be apart of any group associated with me that would be called an "entourage."


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Tuesday, December 21, 2004

Massive Attack Kills Record Number of Americans

19 American soldiers killed today in the deadliest attack on Americans of this war.
The attack hit a mess tent on an American military base, killed 24 total and wounded 60 some others.

My Comment: It seems to me that American military bases are supposed to be some of the safest places in Iraq. This attack seems like they had a guy/guys on the inside. How would they know where the mess tents were located otherwise? If they have infiltrated our military bases then how do we expect the rest of Iraq to be anywhere safe enough to hold elections?! This is going to be a never ending war. This is exactly what you get when you try to force people into adopting the form of government that you prefer they adopt. True democracy is born and burns from the inside out and that is how this should have gone from the very beginning. We should have supported the freedom loving Iraqi's from the outside to over-throw Saddam. Keep in place and enforce the "no-fly" zones and let the Iraqi's do their own revolution. The other thing is that Saddam Hussein would not live forever. He isn't immortal. The waves of change and revolution would have come to the Iraqi people eventually. Instead we had to be typical, impatient Americans and force the issue. We can not save everyone and we have to choose our battles and wars wisely and this one was not chosen wisely at all. It was chosen by a handful of men who have never been in a combat position themselves (Bush, Cheney, Rumsfeld, etc.)

Then when the initial smoked cleared the people we were trying to "liberate" have become our enemy! This is all without even mentioning the biggest blunder (that no one mentions anymore) that being the failure to find any weapons of mass destruction in Iraq.

That being said, I'm not sure what we should do at this point. In some ways I feel that we have to stay no matter what the cost. This is the Colin Powell, "if it's broke it you own it" policy. However, I also feel that in over throwing Saddam we kicked off a civil war and that is the last thing our military should be caught up in. Can anyone say Vietnam? That was a massive civil war that swallowed us up whole and would not let us go for 10 years. We have to ask ourselves if we are prepared to deal with the same thing in Iraq. We could be there for longer then 10 years at this rate.

The Iraqi people need to stand up and fight for their country. Ed Schultz talked about this today during his radio show. He talked about how the "French resistence" did everything they could to help the Allies fight off the Germans. Where is the Iraqi resistence? It does not exist because the Iraqis do not seem to want to fight this fight. Maybe they want a dictator more then a civil war? I don't know. Maybe they want an Islamic state more then they want a democratic state? They sure don't seem to want it as much as George W. Bush wants it for them.

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Good News!!!

The prints are in!!!!!!
I picked up the prints this afternoon and so they are ready to roll. Own my artwork today!! Wooooooooooooohoooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh, and the word of the day is nefarious-meaning, wicked or villianous. I'll use it in a sentence. The nefarious George W. Bush was re-elected....hahahahaheehehehehe.

Sorry to my conservative readers. I had to do that.


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If It's Broke, Don't Fix It. Scrap it.

Another innocent person has been freed from "death row." Ernest Willis spent 17 years of his life in a federal prison awaiting execution before he was found innocent and freed. How is anyone going to be able to give him back 17 years of his life?! According to the MSNBC story:

"When Willis was set free, he was given a plaid shirt, green pants and white running shoes, along with 10 days worth of medication and $100, the standard amount given to released inmates."

The sad thing is that this is just one of many, many wrongful convictions of the death penalty. Again quoting the MSNBC story:

"Willis becomes the eighth death row inmate freed in Texas since capital punishment resumed in 1974. The last exoneration was in the late 1990s."

Willis makes the 117th innocent person released from death row. Think about that. That's 117 people who could have easily been executed dispite their innocence.

It is time to end this barbaric practice. I do not want innocent blood on my hands. Life in prison without parole is no "walk in the park." In fact it is a just punishment for a "convicted" criminal. It keeps them locked up in a small cell where they are left with nothing but themselves and their own thoughts and actions. Besides, it gives society time to find people who might be innocent of a capital crime. God only knows how many people we have killed who have been innocent. We will probably never know.

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Happy Winter Solstice!!!

Celebrating Cycles

Winter Solstice

December is known as a month for holidays. Wherever you live in the world, this joyous month has become a time to treasure all that was in the past year and to begin to make way for a new cycle of rebirth. Much of this seasonal mood has roots in the celebration of winter solstice, which takes place every year in the northern hemisphere on December 21 or 22. On that day, the daytime hours are the shortest they will be all year while the nighttime is at a maximum.

For the ancients, this indicated the disappearance of the nourishing, life-sustaining sun and yet it also meant that in the days following the solstice, the sun would rise and strengthen again, bringing the promise of spring and new life. The winter solstice pledges the same to us today. It presents an opportunity to release that which we want to leave in the past and set our intention for the coming year.

Many aspects of ancient Winter Solstice festivals live on in traditions of the season. The Roman midwinter holiday, Saturnalia was a merry time in which homes were decked with boughs of laurel and evergreen while friends visited each other with fruit, cakes and other treats. In Scandanavia, people listened to minstrel-poets singing ancient legends while the yule log, which was thought to magically help the sun shine brightly, burned in the family hearth. Burning indoor hearths and candles were an aspect of numerous winter solstice festivals and continue to be a part of the season today. In Iran, the winter solstice is observed through the Yalda festival, when a huge bonfire is kindled to symbolically stimulate the sun to grow stronger. For the Hopi tribe of Native Americans, the month-long Soyal festival includes many rituals to honor lights shining amid darkness, a theme echoed by holidays such as Christmas, Chanukah and Kwanzaa. Common to many winter solstice festivals is the gathering of friends and family to feast and spend time together. China's winter solstice festival is called Dong Zhi and is marked by plentiful winter foods.

For many in northern climes, winter solstice is an opportunity to celebrate the cyclical nature of our lives. You can honor the new solar year by creating your own winter solstice ritual incorporating both darkness to represent the end of a year and light, to mark the rising sun. Perhaps you will want to close off the artificial lamps and light candles or a bonfire, ringing in the solstice as in ancient times. Maybe you will choose to contribute some time to helping those having a hard winter or just spend some time meditating on how to bring more light into the world. Whatever, you do to commemorate this crucial time of year, remember that winter solstice is all about the hope for a bright and warm future.

For more information visit
(I received this information in my email from the "Daily Om.")

[My Comment:] Look at all the holidays to honor this time of year the world wide! Christmas, Chanukuh, Kwanzaa, Soyal, Saturnalia and Dong Zhi. In addition you have the "Yule Log" from Scandinavia which was adopted by Christmas. Thus, why we say, "Happy Holidays" this time of year (wink).

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Sunday, December 19, 2004

Two Thoughts

"How boundless and free is the sky of Awareness!
How bright the full moon of wisdom!
Truly, is anything missing now?
Nirvana is right here, before our eyes; this very place is the Lotus Land; this very body, the Buddha."

-Hakuin Zenji, “Song of Zazen”

"People in the West are always getting ready to live."
—Chinese Proverb

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Saturday, December 18, 2004

"My Family in Iraq" by Stephen Said

I loathe most of the American media in reporting what is really going on in America and the world. In America, they do not report on the Ohio election fraud and how the Republicans stole another election. In the world, the media does not report on what is really going on in Iraq. Sure they talk about what the military is doing and reporting on the lastest casualites but they rarely report what life is like for the average Iraqi citizen and how they feel about everything. It is for this reason that I love to follow Iraqi blogs so that I can get the opinion of the average Iraqi. I found an article on Common Dreams by Steven Said where the author talks about life for his family back in Iraq. Here are some of the excerpts:

When I reached my cousin Omar at home in Baghdad last week, he said his father had been stranded in Mosul since the siege on Fallujah. Ghazi had gone to our family home there to be with my aunts Zeineb and Butheina for Ramadan feast. He told my father that when the siege on Fallujah began and the "freedom fighting" (or "insurgency" as it is called in the American media) spread to Mosul, the whole town shut down, everyone too afraid to go out, no businesses open, as though the place were deserted. Speaking with my father from their family home, Ghazi reported that now conditions are so bad, that the vast majority wishes Saddam Hussein were back in was better then, even for the majority who either endured or tolerated, as my family, but did not support the Baathist regime.

Four of my aunts and uncles are doctors in the main Hospitals in both Baghdad and Mosul. From contact with them, I can only imagine what it does to a doctor's heart to try to heal, knowingly in vain, a people who now may have become the first victims of irreparable, long-term geno-contamination in human history: Already at the Conference on Nuclear Arms in Hamburg, Oct. 2003, Dr. Katsuma Yagasaki, Prof. of Science at the University of Ryukyus, Okinawa, reported the US had dropped the equivalent of 250,000 times the radioactive nuclear waste dropped on Nagasaki in Iraq. Different from Nagasaki, however, the contamination in Iraq is widespread, dispersed over entire regions of the country, bullets, strewn casings, armor, fragments, shrapnel... all containing radioactive waste.

The ordinary Iraqi, the silenced majority, is not fighting in the Mahdi Army, or for the insurgents, or joining the American-installed governing authority and its 'police.' The silenced majority, like my nephews and nieces hiding in their basements, hoping they can just go outside, or get to school again, or get food, water, electricity regularly again, know in their hearts that it is economic imperialism itself that suppresses them, that the US Government and military are pawns for corporate interests. They understand the cause of global justice all too well. They know their enemy is a globally endured system in which the ability for some to have more power and wealth than others creates and sustains a legacy of dominance, divisiveness, oppression, violence, and hatred to maintain power. (GOI Editors note: It is time for Democratic Socialism to spread!)

From this perspective, the American military, the Baathists, Ariel Sharon and Likkud Israel, Bin Laden, al Sadr, or Saddam Hussein, are all cousins in an endless parade of foot soldiers for the same problem: the system of economic dominance we all live under that requires oppression. When I asked my family what they thought was the only way to peace in Iraq, they answered, " the only way for peace in Iraq, or on earth now, is through a total revolution in society. One no short of the dream which Christ, Mohammed, and all the prophets spoke of, in which real equality brings an end to this entire unjust way in which we all live together." (GOI Editors note: Like I said, bring on Socialism.)

Now that's a different perspective that you won't find on the "unfaird and unbalanced" FOX,CBS, ABC, NBC, CNN, and MSNBC. The interent and talk radio are about the only places that I get my news anymore. They are the only outlets of true, honest and independent voices reporting and analyzing the news. That's all for now.

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Friday, December 17, 2004

Christmas Songs and Insanity

Wow. I am so angry right now that I think the top of my skull is in serious danger of blowing clean off. I had a post probably 75% done and I tried saving it and the whole damn thing took off like a whore in the night! Hold on...(runs around room screaming every obscene comment and word James can think of and a few that he made up. When that doesn't slow his anger he takes a running jog at the wall and knocks himself out cold as Dick Cheney.) Whew. Glad I got that out of my system. Now, let us see if I can pull this post back out of the recesses of my drug damaged and mentally retarded brain.

I really do not like Christmas songs. (I know this kind of makes me a Grinch but bear with me for two reasons. 1). I suffer from what I simply like to call, "the sickness" and 2). I have a pretty damn good explanation I think). The reason that I crindge when I hear most of these songs is because I have heard them over and over and over again since before I can remember. Some of these songs aren't that bad but they have been played so many times that they pretty much give me an instant headache whenever I hear them. It is like hearing, let's say...10 of your favorite songs over and over and over for about a month and a half every winter. At some point, some year most people would say, "You know I think that those songs are the reason that I bleed out of my ears and go on a killing spree every year between Thanksgiving and Merry Xxxmas!" Most of these songs wouldn't be that bad if you didn't have to hear them in every store and establishment in town. Not only do you hear them in every goddamned store but they are at a volume where even the deaf cridge!! I just wish that these store/restaurants/gas stations, etc. would stop playing these songs. It makes me want to stab someone's eye out with my keys and then jump out a window to hear these songs at every damn place I go. Do we really need to hear Christmas music at the grocery store and Wal-Mart and McDonalds and the service station?! Listen to the songs at home if you really like them that much. Put the damn Christmas album on a loop and play them at your house 24 hours a day during dinner, while your trying to concentrate on paying bills, while your trying to make other important decisions, etc. and see if you don't flip out and pick up a muscle spasm in your eye. (For that matter I'm all for getting rid of any music in the stores at any time of the year! Who wants to listen to music while your trying to have a nice meal out with your loved one(s) and/or friends? How many people listen to music when they are trying to eat at home? I usually don't and if I do it is something that I enjoy not something picked out by a stranger.

So, this brings me to what happened to me this afternoon. I went out to lunch with my lovely wife. I love going out to eat with her because I love seeing her in the middle of the day. Now, we went to a certain restaurant that was playing Christmas music over and over. I was having a hard time concentrating on our converstation until the waiter picked up on this and turned the music down to a normal level (Actually, I think that he turned it down more to shut up the howling dogs outside then for me). I thought my mood would stablize until the damn, "I'll be home for Christmas" song came on. Jesus, Mary, Joseph and all the goddamn shepards, I hate this song! It's the worst one of the bunch and it came on while I was trying to enjoy this nice lunch with the wife. This song is so goddamn depressing! The music behind the lyrics is all droopy and heart-wrenching but the lyrics are worse. This poor guy can't get home for Christmas and he sounds like he is drunk on whiskey and about to put a bullet through his head because the only way he can get home is in his "dreams!" Granted I'm a sensitive schizo but I feel like throwing myself out a window or jumping under a speeding bus when I hear this song. Could we at least get rid of this one from the mind-numbing Yule rotation?

Anyway, I better stop now before the afore mentioned blood begins to flow from my ears, nose and eyes. BRING ON THE LORAZEPAM!! (claps hands). Have a nice drunk/stoned/smashed/or sober (if you're a lucky "stable" person) weekend everyone.

Oh and since It's friday I guess I'll jump on the bandwagon and tell you what i'm listening too today: The Cure, Disintegration.

I'm out.

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Swiped this from Kitten With a Whip:

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A.) A Movie
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In This Issue: Mentall Illness, Dreams, Art, Stem Cells and Europe

Yesterday was a total train-wreck thus the no post. Let's just say that I had an out of body experience for most of the day. It was all I could do to keep everything together. Anyway, on with today's babble. I've been having a difficult time waking up the last few days. I still get up at 9a.m. (which is early for me so don't send me any condesending messages about how I "sleep in" and you get up at 4a.m. or whatever). Usually I just jump right out of bed at 8a.m. but not lately. The thing is also that I am going to bed the night before at like 9! I don't know what's wrong with me this time but I am pretty sure it is time to increase something. My brain chemicals are all dancing around again. Plus, I'm having these really amazing dreams again (which I don't mind). In them I usually travel to different places and get "visions" for art work and the like. Speaking of art work. I went to the printer yesterday and approved the prints of the first 10 paintings. So I should have prints fully available within the next couple of weeks. Then, my website should up fully able to take orders. I think it should be able to take orders now but they will be on back-order. If you do that though you'll be guaranteed a print in this first edition. God, I get soooo depressed when I wake up every morning. I'm just sitting here waiting for the depression to lift and then I have to ride a rocket of anxiety and paranoia once the Celexa kicks in too much later this afternoon. Then take the Ativan to calm back down. Such is the life of one touched by fire. Riding that razor thin edge between genius and insanity.

Wow. I just realized that I haven't been spacing out any of these random thoughts that I'm throwing at you. Hmmm. Oh well. I don't really mind that style actually so maybe i'll adopt that for awhile. Anyway, on the news front I read today that in Germany they repaired some girl's exposed skull with stem cells. That is so f*cking awesome I can't even explain how happy that makes me feel. I new it was only a matter of time before some thing massive like this was going to prove the importance of stem cells and stem cell research. Plus, I knew it was going to happen in Europe. Europe is WAY ahead of close-minded America when it comes to this and many other things. I just hope that America can get its shit together soon and step up the stem cell research. With President Chimp stealing the election and back in place as "president for life" there seems no chance though. GO EUROPE!!! I look to Europe more and more these days and I think that they are going to surpass the USA in many areas. I think the European Union is a great idea and way to check American hegemony and idiocy under the rabid conservatives here.
If Lori and I don't end up moving to Hawaii or Canada then we are headed for Europe. I think that my days in America are numbered. That's all for now.

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Wednesday, December 15, 2004

The United Church of Christ

If I was Christian (and I kind of am since I believe in some of most all religions as a mystic) I would attend the United Church of Christ. I really love their new "controversial" television commericial. Go here to see the commericial if you haven't seen it.

Basically some people feel the commericial is controversial because it shows that the UCC accepts all people regardless of ability, age, race, economic circumstance or sexual orientation. Sexual orientation and the Christian faith has become a hot topic lately and I personally feel that Jesus would not refuse to accept or preach to homosexuals. Jesus taught us all after all that we should "love one another." He did not say anything about "loving one another" except the gays.

Growing up in a Christian faith I read the Bible quite a bit and I do not remember Jesus condeming homosexuals. He certainly did not say anything about banning homosexuals from being married. Some people say that the Old Testament says that homosexuality is an "abomination" but for one I do not agree with that interpretation of those scriptures. Secondly, even If those scriptures in the OT did comdemn homosexuality it was under the Law of Moses. Now, I was always taught that Jesus came to fulfill the Law of Moses and suplant it with his blood atonement.

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Schizo Wednesday

I've been having some rough mental days lately. I am really worried that the new med's that I started recently are already pooping out on me. I've been feeling really out of it to say the least. I've really been strongly feeling the dissassociative aspect of my illness. I am spending a lot of time "out of my body" and having a hard time concentrating on what people are saying and basic, normal tasks such as cleaning the house and getting the oil changed. I have to get the oil changed today and I am just so nervous about it. Getting the oil changed is one of the most nerve-racking activities for me because I don't know a lot about cars and I have to interact with people about it.

Plus, i'm depressed about a lot of things right now too. I am gaining weight from my medication and that is really upsetting. I am going to try and get my ass into the gym but that is intimidating too. I have such a problem with motivation. I think of a lot of things that I should be doing but I just can't get myself to do them. It is like my body doesn't respond to the desires of the brain and it gets SO damn frustrating. I am depressed about my Mormon family still and I don't know If i'll ever talk to my oldest brother again. He hasn't sent me an email concerning our on-going discussions in a while so I think he's just blowing me off. Whatever I guess but it just makes me so mad that this religion has split my family in such a terrible way. I am reading a book right now that discusses Mormonism in a fascinating and enlightening way. I know the stories in Mormonism by heart from being brain washed with them growing up but I have never really heard the other side to them. I have never really heard a true historic account of them and this book (among others) is shining a fuller light on the religion that I now see as a well- crafted cult. The book is titled, Under the Banner of Heaven: A Story of Violent Faith. I highly recommend it if you are at all interested in the Mormon religion.

Anyway, on with the ramble. I am about to start my online classes soon and I am actually looking forward to them but I don't know how I'll ever translate that into actually entering the work place. How terrifying. I guess i'll "cross that bridge when I get there" to use a tired, old cliche. I am experiencing suicidal tendencies and thoughts again lately. I'm not really thinking about it in a depressed way but rather more from a utilitarian way. I just don't feel like I am going to ever find any peace or anyway to feel "settled" into society so I find myself drifting off and thinking what it would be like to "move on." That being said, however, there are a lot of things about life that I still really enjoy. I really like my plants and my friends and I enjoy this blog a lot too. My paintings are another reason to stay I think too.

Well, I think that is all for now. I wish it was more of a positive and happy post but this is my brain right now. I think I am going to go read my book for awhile. Take care friends...

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Tuesday, December 14, 2004

Jesus Was a Liberal

Ah, 'tis the season to celebrate Jesus and I figured it would be fun to lay out the reasons why the founder of Christianity was a radical liberal figure in a time of conservative, orthodoxy.

Jesus was against formal prayer in school. "And when thou prayest, thou shalt not be as the hypocrites are: for they love to pray standing in the synagogues and in the corners of the streets, that they may be seen of men." and "when thou prayest, enter into thy closet, and when thou hast shut thy door, pray"[Matthew 6:5-6].

Jesus was accepting of all lifestyles and people. He did not approve of everything but he accepted and loved everyone. He taught after all that God is the only one who is allowed final judgement. So who are some of these conservatives who judge homosexuals as being "immoral" and "going to hell?"

1. Judge not, that ye be not judged.2. For with that judgment ye judged, so shall ye be judged: and with that measure ye mete, it shall be measured to you again.3. and why beholdest thou mote that is in thy brother's eye, but considerest not the beam in thy own eye?4. Or how wilt thy say to thy brother, let me pull out the mote of thine eye; and, behold a beam is in thine own eye? [Matthew 7:1-4]

Or if you don't like that verse, let's try another: 1 Therefore thou art inexcusable, O man, whosoever thou art that judgest: for wherein thou judgest another, thou condemnest thyself; for thou that judgest doest the same things.2 But we are sure that the judgment of God is according to truth against them which commit such things.3 And thinkest thou this, O man, that judgest them which do such things, and doest the same, that thou shalt escape the judgment of God? [Romans 2-1-3]

This is advice that we should all take.

Jesus was for separation between church and state. Jesus said, "render unto Ceaser[the government]what is Ceaser's and render unto God what is God's" [Matthew 22:21].

The following information is shamelessly pulled from the Jesus Is a Liberal website:

Peacemaking, not War Making: Blessed are the peacemakers: for they shall be called the children of God. [Matthew 5:9] Resist not evil: but whosoever shall smite thee on thy right cheek, turn to him the other also. [Matthew 5:39] I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despite-fully use you, and persecute you; [Matthew 5:44].

The Death Penalty: Thou shalt not kill [Matthew 5:21] Resist not evil: but whosoever shall smite thee on thy right cheek, turn to him the other also. [Matthew 5:39] I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despite-fully use you, and persecute you; [Matthew 5:44] Then there is [John 7:52-John 8:12] where Jesus freed the adulterous woman whom others wanted to stone to death.

Crime and Punishment: If any one of you is without sin, let him be the first to cast a stone at her. [John 8:7] Do not judge, lest you too be judged. For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you. [Matthew 7:1 & 2.]

Justice: Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness: for they shall be filled. [Matthew 5:6] Blessed are the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy [Matthew 5:7] But if ye forgive not men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses. [Matthew 6:15]

Corporate Greed and the Religion of Wealth: Watch out! Be on your guard against all kinds of greed; a man's life does not consist in the abundance of his possessions. [Luke 12.15.] Truly, I say unto you, it will be hard for a rich man to enter the kingdom of heaven. [Matthew 19:23] You cannot serve both God and Money. [Matthew 6:24.]

Community: Love your neighbor as yourself. .[Matthew 22:39] So in everything, do to others as you would have them do to you.[Matthew 7:12.] If you would be perfect, go, sell what you possess and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven. [Matthew 19:21]

Equality & Social Programs: But when you give a feast, invite the poor, the maimed, the lame, the blind, and you will be blessed, because they cannot repay you. You will be repaid at the resurrection of the just. [Luke 14:13 &14.]

Paying Taxes: Render therefore unto Caesar the things which are Caesar's; and unto God the things that are God's. [Matthew 22:21]

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Founding Fathers On Religion: George Washington

Our first president could never be considered a "fundamentalist Christian." This from Virginia

"As noted by Franklin Steiner in "The Religious Beliefs Of Our Presidents" (1936), Washington commented on sermons only twice. In his writings, he never referred to "Jesus Christ." He attended church rarely, and did not take communion - though Martha did, requiring the family carriage to return back to the church to get her later.

When trying to arrange for workmen in 1784 at Mount Vernon, Washington made clear that he would accept "Mohometans, Jews or Christians of any Sect, or they may be Atheists."

"Washington was an inclusive, "big tent" political leader seeking support from the large numbers of Anglicans, Baptists, Presbyterians, and Quakers in Virginia, and even more groups on a national level. He did not enhance his standing in some areas by advocating support for a particular theology, and certainly did not identify "wedge issues" based on religious differences. Instead, in late 1775, Washington banned the Protestant celebration of the Pope's Day (a traditional mocking of the Catholic leader) by the Continental Army."

Go here for historic quotes on Washington's religious activities:
"Gen. Washington never received the communion in the churches of which I am the parochial minister." -- Bishop White.

"On sacramental Sundays, Gen. Washington, immediately after the desk and pulpit services, went out with the greater part of the Congregation." -- Rev. Dr. Abercromble.

"After that, [Dr. Abercrombie's reproof,] upon communion days, he absented himself altogether from the church." -- Rev. Dr. Wilson.

"The General was accustomed, on communion Sundays, to leave the church with her [Nelly Custis], sending the carriage back for Mrs. Washington. " -- Rev. Dr. Beverly Tucker.

"But if Bishop White cherished a faint hope that Washington had some faith in the religion of Christ, Dr. Abercrombie did not. Long after Washington's death, in reply to Dr. Wilson, who had interrogated him as to his illustrious auditor's religious views, Dr. Abercrombie's brief but emphatic answer was:

"Sir, Washington was a Deist."

"The Rev. Dr. Wilson, who was almost a contemporary of our earlier statesmen and presidents, and who thoroughly investigated the subject of their religious beliefs, in his sermon already mentioned affirmed that the founders of our nation were nearly all Infidels, and that of the presidents who had thus far been elected -- George Washington, John Adams, Thomas Jefferson, James Madison, James Monroe, John Quincy Adams, and Andrew Jackson -- not one had professed a belief in Christianity." This from the Rev. Wilson himself, "... Washington was a man of valor and wisdom. He was esteemed by the whole world as a great and good man; but he was not a professing Christian."

So the question that begs being answered is this, "what is Deism?" "Deism is defined in Webster's Encyclopedic Dictionary, 1941, as: "[From Latin Deus, God.Deity] The doctrine or creed of a Deist." And Deist is defined in the same dictionary as: "One who believes in the existence of a God or supreme being but denies revealed religion, basing his belief on the light of nature and reason."

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Monday, December 13, 2004

Founding Fathers On Religion: James Madison

I wanted to talk a little about the separation between church and state. This comes to my mind during this holiday season because of certain high-profile news stories. One being the removal of the cross from the City of Los Angeles seal. The other being some of the things being said right now by certain conservative pundits. Sean Hannity and Bill O'Reilly have been saying that Christmas is "under assault" or "under attack" because people are saying "Happy Holidays" more now then "Merry Christmas."

First of all, Christmas is in no danger of being abolished. Let me just state that before I get to what the founding fathers had to say about a seperation between church and state. Saying, "Happy Holidays" is not endangering Christmas as much as it is inclusive of other religions and indescriminate of any particular religion. Anyway, on with the founding fathers. I am going to do a series of posts about different founding fathers and their opinions on religion and government. Today's it is going to be James Madison. Signer to the Constitution, co-author to the Bill of Rights and the 4th American President. This from Devin Bent of the James Madison Center:

"There is no doubt that James Madison believed in the separation of church and state. It was a constant theme of his career and an area in which his views were sometimes stated without his characteristic moderation. In the Memorial and Remonstrance of June 20, 1785, he wrote:

'During almost fifteen centuries has the legal establishment of Christianity been on trial. What have been its fruits? More or less in all places, pride and indolence in the Clergy, ignorance and servility in the laity, in both, superstition, bigotry and persecution.'

Thirty-seven years later, he has perhaps softened his rhetoric, but not changed his mind. In a letter to Edward Livingston, he writes: 'religion and Government will both exist in greater purity the less they are mixed.'"

Not only does Madison not endorse a "Christian government" he does not endorse a specific Christian denomination. Again quoting the JMC, "He [Madison] does not endorse Christianity or any specific Christian denomination; he is 'absolutely indiscriminant.' He refers to 'great Parent and Sovereign of the Universe,' for instance. He also asks that persons gather 'in their respective religious congregations;' thus they can follow 'their own faith and forms.'"

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The Sun God

Hope you're all having a good monday. I think i'm fighting off the flu. Posted by Hello

Sunday, December 12, 2004


Today's quote comes from the one of my favorite American authors and figures, Mark Twain.

"Don't part with your illusions. When they are gone you may still exist, but you have ceased to live."

~Mark Twain

Saturday, December 11, 2004

Respect Life

There are these automobile license plates here in Colorado which have a picture of a Columbine flower and the saying, "Respect Life." I think they were originally intended to rally the state after the massacre at the Columbine High School in Denver (Plus, the Columbine is the state flower). Anyway, I suspect that the license plates (and their motto) have been hijacked by the anti-choice community in the state. The ironic thing is that I have found these drivers to be some of the most wreckless, violaters of the speed limit on the road. I'm sorry but driving around town like a coked up race car driver endangers people's lives. Not to mention a lot of these drivers have kids in the back seat who are often jumping around, obviously unbuckled from the safety belt. Sometimes I feel like pulling along side these drivers, motioning them to roll down their window, high-light their wild and hazardous driving and say, "Say don't you think driving like that is jeopardizing life rather then 'respecting' it?" I don't do that though because I do not want to get shot by some wing-nut, neo-con, trigger happy, religious fundie so instead I talk about it here with you all. Now don't you feel special?

Thats all for now.

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Friday, December 10, 2004


I wanted to talk a little about plants. I am just fascinated by these wonderous, green creatures. I am kind of like the "shepard of lost plants." I will take just about any unwanted plant into our home. I have taken a plant from my wife's bank that was dying but I am proud to say that it is alive and well amongst it's green friends here at the home base. I just took some cuttings from my sister of some neat little Ivy that apparently grows like mad and without much doing. Then, the other day my mother said she just can not keep up with the philodendron in her house so I volunteered to take it. Our house looks pretty much like a jungle and that is just the way we like it. It reminds me of the greenery of Africa and Hawaii for my wife. The more plants the merrier I say.

Plants are such simple yet complex creatures. They are silent but very much alive and full of life. I love to look at a leaf that is basking in sunshine and see the veins coarsing through it. Plants are often over looked by people but I see the entire universe in them. Plants help us breath and give us a peaceful environment to live in. So surround yourself with plants and I bet that you'll find that they will help you find more relaxation and calm.

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Nothing Much

I haven't been doing much except working on my website, which is pretty much up and running. The site only has 10 of my paintings right now but I'll be shooting another 10 pretty soon. I'm just waiting for the prints so everything is on back order should you order something now. I, of course will post when the prints are available. That's all for now I guess.

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Wednesday, December 08, 2004

Rumsfeld Catches Flack From Troops

The military is turning on the Bush administration. There discontent has been boiling for awhile now but finally one of the troops spoke out. The target was U.S. Secretary of Defense Donald Rumsfeld visiting soldiers in Iraq. Go here to read the details.

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Tuesday, December 07, 2004

Feeling Disassociated but with Mystical Love

Ever get that feeling that you are not apart of society? That you are not even apart of the human race? I get that feeling all the time. It is as if I am an alien that was plopped down onto Earth and now I'm trying to figure out how to exist and get along in this world. Often (most days) my "spirit" is off somewhere else while a small fraction of my energy is left to "run the body." It is like a secretary is left to run the office while the boss is out exploring other worlds and experiences. It is apart of my illness that is probably the most difficult part to deal with because I have a very hard time relating to the "real world" and doing the things of every day life. I think that is because a lot of our life is wasted on silly tasks and inane activities to keep us from feeling what we need to feel. And to keep us from going where our spirits need to go in order to learn and advance in this great project of love that we call "existence." I always space out when i'm talking to certain people about certain things and then I freak out when I come back a few minutes later and have NO idea what the hell they are talking about!! Yikes!

Anyways, that is how I felt yesterday and this morning. I guess part of it is that I find everyday discussions to be boring and circular. I prefer the indepth, growing, productive, deep, passionate discussions of life, spirituality and love. I had such a discussion with my dear friend Holly yesterday. She is a kindred spirit for sure and I love talking with her.

My therapist said that I need to go up on the Risperdal but I don't think so and I am going to bring that up to my p-doc. I do think I need to go up on the Trileptal though because I've also been miserable with the depression again. It makes me so sad and depressed to see so many in the world sad and full of hate and fear.

All this being said, I don't want you to think that I am constantly miserable because I am not. I am actually the opposite. I feel so full of love toward everything and everyone that I often feel like I am going to pass out or just stop breathing from the joy. I get miserable often because I do not see that same level of intense love out there in the world but I still love the world anyway. There are a few (like my friend mentioned above) that I run into that I can see and feel that same level of intense love and acceptance. There is nothing that seperates us in this world except our ignorance. I especially love plants and animals who are without guile or shame. They are just being their beautiful selves. I personally feel that love is the most import thing we can do in this life. To love others deeply and allow them to love us in the same way back. These are our biggest obstacles: fear, shame, guilt and jealousy. If we can make good head-way in over-coming those things then we can well be on our way to liberation and true happiness in this lifetime.

There is no "right and wrong" most of the time. We are all right. There is a level of existence where all labels and hibitions fall away and we are left with the beautiful, pure light of love and peace. We all want to be happy and feel loved. So know that I am loving you right now in this moment. I am sending off soft, loving, accepting energy to you right now is this moment. You are never alone. No one is ever alone. "God" is always with us. In everything and everyone. There is no wrong way to feel the infinite love of the Infinite One. You simply have to open your heart and it begins to flood in.

All things are interconnected and we are all closer then we realize most of the time. This world is a very crude and harsh place a lot of the time so it is vital that we protect, nurture and share the deep love that we do have with others. In this way I think we can best help the world heal from its wounds and make it a better place to live and raise our families.

Anyway, that is kind of the update on my illness and how I'm feeling about the world. I can feel the Celexa kicking in and I'm hoping that it will help me stay happy and focused today.

Love, light and peace to you all.

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Daisy Dew

Here is my monday picture, one day late. Wow. This is just a breath-taking picture on so many different levels. Hope you are having a good day and if not, maybe this will bring a smile to your face. This is a good one to show the interconnectivity of all things in existence. Posted by Hello

Sunday, December 05, 2004

Birthday Tattoo

It's my birthday today!!!! God, I'm 29. I think that 29 is worse then 30 but I honestly don't really care about age. Its just a number. Anyway, sorry I didn't post yesterday but I was getting this super duper tattoo done..hehe. It's my Scottish clan Campbell badge and my family name below it. The lettering on the badge: "Ne Obliviscaris." Which means, "Do Not Forget." Posted by Hello
"To give pleasure to a single heart by a single kind act is better than a thousand head-bowings in prayer."

~ Saadi

Friday, December 03, 2004


I know that this may come as a shock to all of you readers but I am not a big fan of Christmas. Sure, as a kid I loved it but then again what kid wouldn't love being showered with free shit that you've been yearning for throughout the year?

Christmas is a made-up "religious" holiday anyway. It is not a holiday about Christ (you're thinking about Easter). It is a holiday about Santa Claus and crappy music. Society has been playing the same goddamn holiday music for the last 40 some years! Don't you think that is just a little sick?! The only change comes when some R&B singer try's to "spice" these songs up but not even the coolest cat could make some of these songs cool.

Anyway, most Christians worship the all mighty dollar during the holiday season in the silly tradition of buying gifts for everyone you know. Present giving is basically just exchanging money back and forth in the form of junk. Do we really need most of the crap that people buy us? Most of it just gets tossed in that junk closet/room/drawer (we all have the "junk drawer/room/closest" don't we?).

What is it about Christmas that makes people drive around like psychotics off their meds who've been smoking the crack pipe, shooting up heroin and been awake for 3-weeks straight? I couldn't even go to the local "Hobby Lobby" to buy myself one damn tube of paint without playing bumper cars and standing in the Disneyland-esque lines.

Here is my suggestion for Christmas. Let's do away with gift giving all together and give our money instead to the homeless shelter, the county mental health center, or the humane society. As for our kids? They don't need all that junk anyway. It just spoils them and teaches them to be selfish mass consumers. They get enough during their birthday. The birthday is better because it is the one day a year that is their own little holiday. Besides, the whole Santa thing is sick. We teach these kids about this magical guy who gives kids presents on Christmas and then a few years later we basically tell our kids that Santa was just a big lie.


And we wonder why kids learn to distrust adults?

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Thursday, December 02, 2004

Ice-ac the Icicle

We received 15 inches of snow last weekend. Ever since we have been watching this icicle grow. I'd say today when I took this picture that it was about 6ft. long. There is another one on the other side of the roof that is getting there too. Maybe tomorrow i'll take a picture of that one. Wow, I've reached a new level of insanity. I'm watching icicles grow. Posted by Hello

Wednesday, December 01, 2004

Ukraine Splitting Up?

I got this map off a friends blog. Half Baked Rhetoric. Look at how split Ukraine is between the two candidates (Go here for a larger map). Its looks like Ukraine might be splitting up. This from MSNBC: "Meanwhile, the regional legislature in Yanukovych’s home region of Donetsk (this region is in the blue area on the map) decided to go ahead with a referendum on Jan. 9 seeking autonomy from the country’s central government, a move which would transform Ukraine into a federation."

This amid talk of a new election going forth. According to MSNBC: "Ukraine’s parliament also approved a no-confidence motion in Yanukovich's government as international mediators gathered in the capital to try to bring the spiraling political crisis to a peaceful resolution."

"The parliament's no-confidence vote added a new element to the crisis. Under procedures spelled out in Ukraine's constitution, Kuchma must now appoint a caretaker government.
But minutes before the vote, the outgoing president announced he supported holding an entire new presidential election, not just a revote of the disputed second round."

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