Tuesday, November 30, 2004

Napalm Used in Fallujah

I heard this story today on the Randi Rhodes show. Another thing that our government (and anemic media) isn't telling you. Apparently, America is the only country in the world who still uses napalm. That just warms the ole heart doesn't it? Here is the story from the U.k. Sunday Mirror:

Nov 28 2004
US uses banned weapon ..but was Tony Blair told?
By Paul Gilfeather Political Editor

US troops are secretly using outlawed napalm gas to wipe out remaining insurgents in and around Fallujah.

News that President George W. Bush has sanctioned the use of napalm, a deadly cocktail of polystyrene and jet fuel banned by the United Nations in 1980, will stun governments around the world.

And last night Tony Blair was dragged into the row as furious Labour MPs demanded he face the Commons over it. Reports claim that innocent civilians have died in napalm attacks, which turn victims into human fireballs as the gel bonds flames to flesh.

Outraged critics have also demanded that Mr Blair threatens to withdraw British troops from Iraq unless the US abandons one of the world's most reviled weapons. Halifax Labour MP Alice Mahon said: "I am calling on Mr Blair to make an emergency statement to the Commons to explain why this is happening. It begs the question: 'Did we know about this hideous weapon's use in Iraq?'"

Since the American assault on Fallujah there have been reports of "melted" corpses, which appeared to have napalm injuries.

Last August the US was forced to admit using the gas in Iraq.

A 1980 UN convention banned the use of napalm against civilians - after pictures of a naked girl victim fleeing in Vietnam shocked the world.

America, which didn't ratify the treaty, is the only country in the world still using the weapon.

Monday, November 29, 2004

Hey Everybody! Duck!!

Ok,ok, that was a horrible pun but isn't this a cute picture?!!! Posted by Hello

Extreme Christianity Does Not Understand Their Own Bible

***(I will be commenting through out this article. My comments will be in bold italics)***

Published on Sunday, November 28, 2004 by ABC News
Evangelicals to Bush: Payback TimeChristian Conservatives Say They Gave Bush 'Moral Mandate'; Call Him to Act on Their Behalf

Among some conservative Christians, there is a belief that President Bush received a "moral mandate" to win the recent presidential election — and they are calling on him to act on their agenda now. (Many Fundamentalist Christians want to blur the seperation of church and state in this country but they are forgetting the words of Jesus, "And Jesus answering said unto them, Render to Caesar[government] the things that are Caesar's, and to God the things that are God's. And they marvelled at him.") [Mark 12:17]

"I believe Our Lord elected our president and I believe he put him in office and it is my prayer that he will sustain him in office," said one woman at the Coral Ridge Presbyterian Church in Fort Lauderdale, Fla. (Hmmm. That's is interesting. It sounds to me that many Extremist Christians do not even understand their own scripture. "For their is no respect of persons with God."[Rom. 2:11] God is perfect and loves everything with equal emotion. Therefore I do not think that God would favor one presidential candidate over another. Being perfect and all loving God would have to be impartial to things like politics.)

Another was asked if she believed that God intervened in the election. "Absolutely," she said. (Again, If God intervened in our election we would no longer have our free-will and that is critical to most religious/spiritual beliefs. Not only that but if God intervened in our election to elect the "better" George W. Bush then would God not intervene to disrupt elections in corrupt countries? God doesn't do that because God is impartial. Giving the election to Bush would mean that God engaged in rigging the election. Which among mortals is illegal so I am sure such an event for God would be a sin/temptation and God [being perfect] can not engage in sin or temptation. "When tempted, no one should say, "God is tempting me." For God cannot be tempted by evil, nor does he tempt anyone;")[James 1:13]

"Values" voters delivered for the president, and the president must now deliver for them — especially in the courts, said Gary Cass, head of a grassroots political organization affiliated with Coral Ridge, called the Center for Reclaiming America.

"It's about the next 40 years and how the courts are going to affect the world in which my children and grandchildren are going to be raised in," he said.

Cass wants a U.S. Supreme Court that will outlaw abortion and gay marriage. "Do you want to take your children to a National League baseball game for instance and have homosexuals showing affection to one another? I don't want my kids to see that," he said. (This is down right bigoted since it reminds me of comments circa the civil war about black people among rascist whites).

Risking God's Wrath

By one measure, conservative Christians comprised 12 percent of the electorate this year — the same as four years ago. But they see themselves as a crucial piece of the president's political base.

They believe that if their agenda is not implemented quickly — if their concerns are not addressed in a timely fashion — God will be angry. (How can God honestly be angry when he is perfect and a perfect, impartial deity would not have any anger. "I will speak of the glorious honour of Thy majesty, and ofThy wondrous works. And men shall speak of the might of Thy terrible acts:and I will declare Thy greatness. They shall abundantly utter the memory of Thy great goodness, and shall sing of Thy righteousness. The LORD is gracious, and full of compassion; slow to anger, and of great mercy. The LORD is good to all: and His tender mercies are over all His works. ") [Psalm 145:5,9]

One leading evangelist recently warned, "God's patience runs out." (How can God be perfect if God has limits to his patience? My patience runs out but I am far from perfect as God is. This from the Bible: "But, beloved, be not ignorant of this one thing, that one day [is] with the Lord as a thousand years, and a thousand years as one day. The Lord is not slack concerning his promise, as some men count slackness; but is longsuffering to us-ward, not willing that any should perish, but that all should come to repentance.") [2 Peter 3:8,9]

Dr. James Kennedy delivers sermons at Coral Ridge which are broadcast to three million homes. He said he knows of no timetable for God's wrath, but wants results fast. (Who wants results fast? God or Dr. Kennedy? I don't see anywhere in the Bible where God said he wants results fast should a Christian political conservative leader come to power in America).

He dismissed the concerns of people who worried about the impact of Christian conservatives on the U.S. government. Repent," he said with a laugh. "Repent. That's what I'd say."(Well, I am sure that Dr. Kennedy needs to "repent" just as much as any "non-Christian" maybe more so! Again, using quoting the Bible: "There is no-one righteous, not even one;"for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God,"[Romans 3:10,23] Also in the Bible, Jesus was tested by his adversaries asking him if an adulterous woman should be stoned according to Mosaic Law. "So when they continued asking him, he lifted up himself, and said unto them, He that is without sin among you, let him first cast a stone at her.") [John 8:7]

People who are concerned about the influence of Christianity "have never really surrendered their life to God and submitted themselves to his commandments — and if they did that they wouldn't have so much concern about some court saying again that it's wrong," he said.

Asked about the millions of Americans who are not Christian, or have a different interpretation of Christianity, Kennedy said with another laugh: "I couldn't care less. It's true." (Hmmm. I am pretty sure that Jesus stated the second commandment being basically to love and respect each other. "And thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind, and with all thy strength: this [is] the first commandment. And the second [is] like, [namely] this, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself. There is none other commandment greater than these." [Mark 12:30-31.] I am pretty sure that loving your neighbor means loving them regardless of their religious beliefs. Not saying things like, "I couldn't care less.")

"I think that the idea that the worst sin that somebody can commit is to offend somebody is ridiculous," he said. (It is not the worst sin but it is a sin. Jesus did not go around offending people left and right.)

Evangelicals say Kennedy may seem intolerant, but there's no greater love than upholding the will of God. (Once again, Christians are told, "Thou shalt love thy neighbor as thyself. There is no other commandment greater then these." So, upholding the will of God and loving/respecting [respect is an important aspect to love] your neighbor as yourself are pretty much fused together in importance to Christians.)

ABC News' Dan Harris contributed to this report.
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Sunday, November 28, 2004

"People seem not to see that their opinion of the world is also a confession of their character."

-Ralph Waldo Emerson

The Rio, Margaritas, Weddings, Cigars, Ganja, Medication and a Snow Storm. All on a Saturday Night.

Yesterday was a blur of a day. I got into a huge fight with my dad over being able to drink at their house and other aspects to Mormonism. My dad then accused me of being "anti-Christian" and threatened to call the police! That was my cue to walk out of the situation and leave. I called back later and we were able to work something out once emotions had cooled a bit. I was left with a MASSIVE headache though and so I took two Excedrin which left me all jumpy and excited. I felt like a coke fiend who hasn't gotten any sleep in a week. I was all jittery and shaky and not hungry in the least.

Then we ended up going out to this great Mexican restaurant with our friends called the "Rio." They make some killer margaritas at this place and usually two is enough to knock you into next week. Plus, I had already taken some ativan and Risperdal before we went out to bring me down off my "coke bindge." So, needless to say I got pretty wasted. Then we went to the local Holiday Inn to crash a wedding and pick up (rescue) another couple of friends. All the while heavy snow was coming down. We then proceeded to write obscene comments in the snow that was gathered on the windows of our friends car in the parking lot. I was so out of it that I wrote mine on the car NEXT to our friends car. Oops!

Anywho, after that we ended up at the house of these two friends whose car we violated. We drank more beer, smoked a cigar and smoked A LOT of ganj. We managed to get home in all the snow though thanks to our one friend who basically was our D.D. Thanks Mike!!

Whew. I needed to party like a rock star after that nasty fight with my father. Oh yeah and it is still snowing today. We have 6+ inches on the ground already and it is still snowing in big, fat-ass flakes. I love getting snowed in as long as I don't have anywhere to go.

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Friday, November 26, 2004

I hate people.

I don't know why I bother trying to have any kind of meaningful connection with anyone. Most people are so goddamn rude and selfish that it just makes me want to push the buttom and send all of us back to the stone age to start over. We are pathetic as a species and most of thing we are hot shit. We build a bunch of crap and kill a bunch of other people and then think that we are an evolved species? Bullshit.

God I enjoy listening to talk radio programs online while i'm on the computer but I hate how the ads are the same fucking ones over and over and over and over again. It's almost like someone in a high seat of power is pounding them into my ears to push me over the edge.

I am so out of shape. I was reminded of that last night by, The Simpsons. In this episode Homer takes his shirt off and I suddenly realized that I have the body of Homer Simpson. How f-ing depressing is that shit? The worse part about having a Homer simpson gut? None or most of it isn't even fat so I could run around on a tread mill until I wore my feet clean off and I would still have a massive belly. The problem is that I have a hiatel hernia that forces all my other organs to push out and thus my belly swells like a fucking massive pimple.

That's my bitch session for now. I'm sure i'll have more later. Goddamn world. I am in an LSD trip that won't let me go. I feel like i am going to explode!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thanksgiving Report


Still reading? O.k., don't say I didn't warn you. I don't want to get a bunch of bitchy emails about how "gross" I am. You were all warned!!!! Haha. Well, it went better then I expected and it went a lot better then years past with my family. Thank God!!! In years past we all just kind of sat around and looked at each other while my mother and I tried to think of anything to say to the others that might produce some kind of converstation. Anyway, we had a great time with these people we were with this year and we got to drink booze! Wow, I got to drink booze for the first time in my Thanksgiving history. It sure was nice and helped the whole interaction thing. They made this slushie type drink which consisted of canberry and orange juices and vodka all mixed together and then frozen. It was tasty. I was chowing down on those all night. Then they made these brandy slush drinks and mixed it with Squirt grapefruit soda which was delightful indeed!! Hmmm...I don't have a drinking problem. Not at all! I have no problem being able to drink lol. My friend Holly can attest to that (wink).

So the dinner went well and the food was scrumptious. I ate and drank and ate and drank even more and then I had some more cranberry slush and so on. Before I knew it my mind was drifting off into a "candyland" of sorts only this place had booze flowing down the streets and raining from the sky. Ahhhhhhh. Then I was snapped out of this place with one of the family daughters yelling, "OH MY GOD!!! OH MY GOD MOM!!!" I sat up and realized that I had cranberry slush all over my face and then she stood up and said, "MOUSE!!" I looked over and sure enough there was a little mouse running along the back of the counter where all of the food was located. Once he saw and heard us all he dashed in behind the oven to hide. Thus, we set traps on either opening of the oven and waited. Pretty soon he poked his little head out from behind the oven and ventured out toward the peanut butter smothered mouse trap. Then...SNAP!!!! We got the mouse and that got all the ladies screaming and one of the daughters was standing up on the her chair. It wasn't a pretty sight either. There was a little puddle of blood and the mouse was still kind of twitching. Eek. So this year was the year of the mouse. That was the big excitement for the evening.

I'm pretty sure any holiday gathering isn't complete without some kind of excitement like that. Usually though it is something like Uncle so-and-so getting too drunk and ranting about conspiracy theories over how Thanksgiving is one of the holidays started by aliens to control the masses. Either that or someone burns the turkey and there is smoke pouring out of the oven and the fire department has to be called in to save the day. Fist fights are also common in such gatherings. There was a wee bit o' that last night between the dad and one of the boyfriends. I just sat back and watching and drank more slushie. Mmmmmm...frozen booze.

Anyway, It was actually kind of a depressing day for me because it was the first time that I can remember that my family has not come together for the holiday but it was probably for the best given the rifts right now. I called my mom once Lori and I got home and I talked to her about the day and found out that we both had had a rough day in thinking about the divisions in our family. I could tell that my mother had been crying and that just broke my heart and I had to choke back the tears. I adore my mother and hate to see her depressed or crying. She is such a sweetheart of a lady and I just want to see her happy. So, anyway, the saga goes on. I will let you know what happens when/if my brother writes back. I don't know if I told you about this but I wrote my oldest brother a long email about some of the problems between us. He wrote back with a quick note saying that they (his family) were going skiing over the weekend and that he would get back to me next week. So, we will see. Drama and fakeness. Two things that I HATE the most!!

Now I'm off to masturbate and then eat some lunch. I got a new nudie magazine in the mail the other day. Ahhh I sure am thankful for porn. What a great invention huh. Too much info? Sorry. I'm feeling blunt to day. Remember, I warned you.

Peace and love and unity to you all!!! May this post find you all in good spirits and good health.

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Thursday, November 25, 2004

Unser Fuhrer (Our Leader)

O.k., this is TOTALLY fascist and totalitarian.These billboards are popping up at towns all over the country apparently. Coming soon to a town near YOU!! "Our Leader" is one of the titles that the Nazi's had for Hitler and they reminded everybody of his leadership presence through posters, etc. Not to mention that Saddam had pictures of himself all over the place.Although I would have to say that the worst part of this billboard is the period. You watch, this Republican Congress and Senate are going to change the constitution so that a president can run for a third term and Bush will "somehow" pull out another squeaker to be "Our Leader."


Wednesday, November 24, 2004

The United States of Ukraine

So it appears that the election in Ukraine was a fraud, full of errors and most likely stolen. Sounds like the past two American elections. It's not like there has been an instance where the popular voice of the people was silenced in an American election. Oh wait, there was the 2000 election. How could anyone forget about that pesky thing? Oh yes, and there is this current election that was dripping with evidence of voter repression and fraud but you won't find any reporting of that in the mainstream media.

Hmmmm. I wonder what are the reasons that the Ukrainian people are marching in the streets claiming voter fraud and a stolen election? First, we have long voter lines. Second there apparently were not enough voting machines for the masses of people lined up to vote. Then we have exit polling that did not match the results. Wow, are we sure that they aren't talking about the United States? (checks news source again). Nope, it is in Ukraine.

This from ABC News "Secretary of State Colin Powell said Wednesday the United States cannot accept the results of elections in Ukraine, which the opposition says was marred by fraud." Well its good to know that America is looking out for voter fraud and standing up for counting all the votes abroad. Because they sure can't seem to do any of that for us here in the "greatest democracy." We might as well bring Ukraine into the U.S. as the 51st state of the union. Ronald Reagan use to say that America was the "shining beacon of democracy on a hill." Well, it appears that Ukraine saw that light and is following America in this new tradition of fraudulent elections. I guess Bush is right that "democracy is on the march." I just didn't realize that it was his form of democracy. Is this the democracy that we are a hoping takes light in Iraq? Hmmmm. I wonder if this up-coming election in Iraq will go smoothly or if there will be claims of fraud, error and voter intimidation. I think we all know the answer to that question.

I wonder.
How well does, "vote early and vote often" translate into Ukrainian?

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Down with Thanksgiving

I find Thanksgiving to be the worst holiday of the year (then again I don't like any holiday with my family). It's a load of crap. In fact I'd much rather take a nice big crap then get together with my family for these sorts of occasions. Anyway, people say around Thanksgiving that they are thankful to have food to eat. Which is a good thing of course to be thankful of but then we go and over-indulge in the food we are thankful for. I'm sure that starving people around the world just LOVE this American holiday of classic over-indulgence. We force more and more food into ourselves until we start staggering around drunk on the tryptophan in the turkey. A tradition in my family has been to eat until you nearly pass out and have to lie prostrate on the floor and unbuckle your belt or unbutton that top button on your pants. I have eaten so much damn turkey over the Thanksgiving's of the past that the thought of turkey and Thanksgiving just makes me want to honk as if I'd drank 20 beers and 10 shots of Jager.

Then of course there is the lovely tension in the family that allows leads to fighting over political and religious differences. Which is a perfect way to celebrate a holiday which originally celebrated being thankful to live in a land where a person had freedom of religion and political positions. In our family it seems that no one wants to get together but we get together anyway because that is what families "do." I think that is why my parents have called off Thanksgiving for this year. There is just too much tension and division over politics and religious issues right now. For that matter Christmas has been cancelled as well.

Anyway, my wife and I are going to a friend's house this Thanksgiving where we are actually allowed and encouraged to have an alcoholic drink with Thanksgiving dinner. In my wife's family and my own we are not allowed to drink anything alcoholic during Thanksgiving or Christmas dinners because half these families are Mormon. They can't stand watching you have a little wine in front of them! OH MY GOD!!!!! I'm drinking WINE!!!! I must be going to HELL!!! I know, drinking wine is just like shooting up heroin. If I can drink some wine this Thanksgiving with our friend's family then I don't think I'll ever do the family Thanksgiving ever again. Sometimes you just feel more comfortable and accepted by friends more then family.

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Monday, November 22, 2004

Basket Brawl in Detroit

Ron Artest and Stephen Jackson should be kicked out the National Basketball Association for their assault on fans friday night. So should any other player who might have entered the stands and attacked a fan. There should also be assault charges filed against Artest and Jackson. I personally think that those two should be going to jail. Artest is nothing but a glorified "thug" who happens to play basketball. Artest has been suspended 7 times!!!

People defending these basket brawlers are claiming that Artest and the others had every right to attack these fans because they were hit with plastic beer cups. Give me a fucking break!! Granted no one wants beer thrown at them but it certainly does not mean you are allowed to run into the stands and punch people. These guys are payed millions of dollars to be "professionals." Engaging in a physical fight with a fan in the stands is not being a "professional."

Let's say I am working at the mall and I'm mopping up the floor at a food court and some punk kid throws a cup of soda at me. I would be fired and arrested if I then jumped the kid and started throwing punches. Artest and others should have called security over and pointed out the fans throwing the beer and walked away. They get paid too much money to not require them to have more restraint then running around in the seats looking for fans to punch out.

Granted these guys are "super stars" but that does not give them the right to go around acting like they please and breaking laws that the rest of us citizens have to obey.

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Dolphin Cam

I decided to post a fun or inspirational picture on my blog every monday. I know that monday's pretty suck you know what so maybe these pictures will all help brighten our mondays a bit. Posted by Hello

Sunday, November 21, 2004

Timeless Self-Essence

"If the eye never sleeps, all dreams will naturally cease. If the mind makes no discriminations, the ten thousand things are as they are, of single essence. To understand the mystery of this One essence is to be released from all entanglements. When all things are seen equally the timeless Self-essence is reached. No comparisons or analogies are possible in this causeless, relationless state."

-Seng-Tsan, “Verses On The Faith Mind”

From "Teachings of the Buddha," edited by Jack Kornfield, 1993. Reprinted by arrangement with Shambhala Publications

4a.m., Red Bull, Green Apple Vodka, and Painting. Mmmmm.

Here is my little painting studio. The lil black manic one up on there is a piece I just started @ 3a.m. It is amazing what Red Bull and Vodka + meds will do for a schizoaffective artist. I flew off into never-neverland for a bit and cranked out this painting. I think acrylic paints were invented by some impatient bipolar or schizo case who could not stand waiting for the oils to dry. I'll get close ups later when I finish the bastard but it is 4a.m. and I am seeing hallucinations of purple fog and twinkling stars. Yep, It is time indeed to pass out and get some sleep! The Insomniac Theatre is shuting it's doors for repairs. See you on the other side my friends. Posted by Hello

Friday, November 19, 2004

Healing Iraq

Healing Iraq is another great blog detailing the the situation over there from the Iraqi perspective. The guy running it is an Iraqi dentist. Check it out to get a different view from FOX News and CNN.

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Shooting Up a Mosque in Iraq

Goddamn it.

Now we are going in and shooting people while they pray?! God, we are going to have a full scale, national uprising on our hands over there with this kind of action. Can you imagine if another country was occupying America and they came into a Catholic church, guns blazing during mass?! We're raiding a mosque in search of a few suspects? What a terrible risk! God knows if any of those killed were innocent people. I'm sure at least one of them was innocent. This whole thing just sounds terrible to me.

Go here for the full story.

Speaking of the Media

This from Dr. Howard Dean (who hopefully will be the next Chairman of the Democratic Party):

Dean stressed corporate ownership of the media and the increased focus on entertainment as problems with today's media, and he emphasized the importance of diversity and regulation in fixing these problems.

"The media is a failing institution in this country," Dean said. "They are not maintaining their responsibility to maintain democracy.

"The solution to restoring an ethical media, Dean said, is to ensure diversity and cap corporate ownership of media outlets. He said he supports government regulation of media ownership.

"[The media] are incapable of regulating themselves," Dean said. "What's at stake is our democracy. If you think that American democracy can survive without an ethical media, then you are wrong."

Special thanks to Besotted Blog for bringing this story to my attention.

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The Television Media is Worthless.

The television media is basically becoming a video tabloid. Besides Iraq the stories done on these cable news networks are lame. Even with Iraq the stories are censored so that Americans don't see the same news as the Middle East and Europe. The worst thing is that these cable "news" shows aren't covering one of the biggest news stories to come along in awhile. That being the election irregularities and possible vote fraud in Ohio, Florida and New Hampshire. With the exception of "Countdown with Keith Olbermann" the news has totally shut this story out. Now, why won't the rest of the media talk about this story? Hmmm. Anyway, this is a list of some of the main stories covered last night on some of the cable news programs.

Scott Peterson: I never understood the fascination with this guy from the beginning. There are (unfortunately) many murders every day in America. So why spend hours and hours analyzing this chump? Even his name is boring. Shouldn't he have a name like, Chet Savage or Buzz Kazinski? Who are these people who HAD to stay up to date with his case like it was some sick "reality show?" It's kind of like people who are obsessed with the CSI shows. I think they have one for every damn city now. I just personally do not need to watch some show about murders and vicious criminals late at night. I would never get any restful sleep at all. "Coming up on Larry King: Scott Peterson takes a shit!!-For the hour!!!"

Addicted to Porn: I saw this story on the "reputable" CNN last night. Addicted to PORN?! I mean isn't that kind of like being addicted to air? I mean the porn industry is like an $80 billion dollar a year industry or something like that. There are A LOT of people looking at porn then and I just do not think that porn is a major threat to anything. We all look at porn. Come on, you know you look at it. Certainly I do not think that it is a major news story. Yep, porn addiction is MUCH more important then voting fraud in the 2004 election (that was sarcasm by the way).

Fountain of Youth: Oh yeah, this is a top story FOR SURE!!! I don't know why they even bother covering Iraq with this breaking story! This was a story about how people are getting plastic surgery and botax because they want to look younger. STOP THE PRESSES!!! OH MY GOD WHAT NEWS!!! Plastic surgery trumps the 2004 election ANY day.

I mean, come on. I'm not the smartest cat in the alley but I do know a few things and I think that the possibility that the 2004 election was stolen would be a major, MAJOR story in the news. Even the network news people will not talk about it. Thank GOD for Keith Olbermann and Randi Rhodes and a few newspapers! These t.v. news agencies are no longer the strong, independent media. They are just as corporate and political as politicians anymore. It seems like the mass media does not want to "upset" the party in power within the governtment. Most of these media spokes people and executives are sympathetic to the government and no longer represent the "voice of the people" in asking the hard-hitting questions. Government controlled mass media is a sign of a fascist movement/government.

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Thursday, November 18, 2004

Kermit Kicks ASSSSSS

You are Kermit the Frog.You are reliable, responsible and caring. And you
have a habit of waving your arms about

Go here to take the quiz.

No Religious Pamphlets

This is our front screen door. I put that sign up because of all the religious pamphlets we were receiving. Then I came home one day and found a pamphlet from the Jehovah's Witnesses! So, I taped their pamphlet up in above my original sign and wrote: No religious pamphlets MEANS YOU TOO JEHOVAH'S WITNESSES!!! By the way, the street sweeper and the mowing crew have moved on and I am finally back in my quiet place. Posted by Hello

Barking Dogs and Street Sweepers

I normally am an animal lover and I often think that I prefer animals to humans but there is a new dog in the area that has the worst bark. It barks like someone kicked it in the balls (assuming of course it is a boy dog) with this high-pitched yet off key a bit sound. This sounds worms right into my brain and starts chewing on the most sensitive, burnt-out nerve it can find. Yesterday I found myself driving from street to street at 15mph with the windows down looking and listening for where this high-strung dog lives (don't worry i'm not going to kill the damn thing...yet anyway). I have narrowed his place of residence down to three houses and I think I am going to leave a note on the owner's door. Here is what the first draft will probably look like:

Dear neighbor,
Your damn dog is pushing me towards the point of no return. No one wants that.
I am schizoaffective and all that should mean to you is that I am sometimes on the edge of going on a homicidal rampage and I am going to start with you!! (Jusssst kidding!! God, you pissed yourself didn't you? Ha.) But seriously. Will you please keep your dog inside during the day? For one it is cold outside and the poor thing is probably barking to stay warm but two it is driving me more insane then I already am.

Semi-insane guy down the street.

I am sure that first edition will not pass the editing of my wife. Then there is the street cleaner. I have been up since 7a.m. and this guy has passed by the house 4 times!!! Is the street that fucking dirty?! You know these machines. They are the ones with that loud hum as they slooooowwwwwwly drive by the house. The thing is that they usually only go by once. This guy is driving by like he KNOWS I hate the sound and he's just doing it to enrage me. I think it's the same guy who owns the emasculated dog. I'm convinced of that now. I think I need to buy myself a hunting rife with a super-duper sniper scope. On second thought that is probably a very bad idea.

GOD DAMN IT!!!! Here that mother F**CKER comes AGAIN!!!! FIVE TIMES!!!! And of course he has that nice and happy beeping sound that follows his humming hunk of FBI surveillance equipment. I am going to get out of here and go buy some shit at the store or I am going to run out there and attack that guy like a raving lunatic. Sweet Jesus W. Christ!!! He passed by AGAIN!!!!! That makes 6 times. Maybe I'll back out of the garage at like 40mph and smash up his little operation. Rat BASTARD!!!

O.k., I'll be back in awhile. I'm going out to the store. Not exactly much of an improvement for me though. The super market is cousin to the dreaded Circus. Music and lights and people EVERYWHERE. Anyway, I'll report back later.

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Wednesday, November 17, 2004

Smoke Clears from Falluja

According to the Inter Press Service, "At least 800 civilians have been killed during the U.S. military siege of Fallujah, a Red Cross official estimates."

His estimate is based on reports from Red Crescent aid workers stationed around the embattled city, from residents within the city and from refugees, he said.

"Several of our Red Cross workers have just returned from Fallujah since the Americans won't let them into the city," he said. "And they said the people they are tending to in the refugee camps set up in the desert outside the city are telling horrible stories of suffering and death inside Fallujah."

"The Americans close their ears, and that is it," the Red Cross official said. "They won't even let us take supplies into Fallujah General Hospital."

The official went on to say that, "our estimate of 800 civilians is likely to be too low."

He said the Ministry of Health in the U.S.-backed interim Iraqi government had stopped supplying hospitals and clinics in Fallujah two months before the current siege.

"The hospitals do not even have aspirin," he said.

I know (yawn) just another "annoying" story about the Iraqi War. Maybe if you just ignore it the whole thing will go away, right? Wrong. Now I know why the red stripes in our flag are symbolic of blood. We have the blood of many innocent lives on our hands. Sorry if this sounds sarcastic and harsh but I am pissed off about this story. This looks terrible in the eyes of the Iraqi's I'm sure. How can you be winning hearts and minds when we kill some 800+ innocent civilians? Nothing says "liberation" like a bullet to the head or a bomb blowing your body in half. It is a liberation from life is more like it.

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Tuesday, November 16, 2004

This is the Real Face of War.

Go here to see what war looks like. Americans tend to only look at the "romantic" and "patriotic" side of the war. The American media does not show the nitty-gritty, bloody true pictures of war. If you support this war and can not handle looking at these pictures then I submit that you do not understand the reality of war and maybe need to look inside yourself and ask some deep questions. Posted by Hello

Americans Apologize to the World for King George.

Americans, including myself (See above picture) apologize to the rest of the world for the Bush election. We are just as shocked as you are. Posted by Hello

Iraq, CIA and a Nuclear Bomb.

The Battle of Falluja has become a major offensive. 38 U.S. Marines and some 1,200 insurgents have been killed in the battle. And the civilian death toll appears to be massive. Yet the issue of Iraq seems to have been forgotten in most circles. People no longer want to talk about it because it has become "annoying," "depressing" and "difficult to watch." Well, that's what war IS. These people obviously have no idea what war is about. War IS depressing and difficult to watch. These are probably the same people who did not want the movie "Saving Private Ryan" from being shown on network t.v. The reality of war is grim and unpleasant but maybe if we faced that reality more often we would not be so quick to rush to war.

The attack on Falluja and the suffering of the remaining citizens seems to have motivated violence and battles elsewhere. Mosul has exploded in recent days and that is troubling considering Mosul was originally seen as a more passive area of Iraq. I remember when the war began and they talked about the north and the south being the areas of "least resistance." Now things have gotten extremely worse. Mosul is now another hot bed of resistance. The war is widening into something we have not seem before.

Meanwhile, the CIA is falling apart and imploding. This from NPR:

"November 15, 2004 · The top two leaders of the CIA's clandestine service, Steven Kappes and Michael Sulick, resign. The agency has seen several high-level resignations since new chief Porter Goss assumed the post seven weeks ago. NPR's Mary Louise Kelly reports."

Porter Goss is a partisan Republican and is said to be purging the CIA of any liberals or democrats who disagree with Bush foreign policy. The interesting thing is that several of these people are choosing to resign. These top officials have seem to have had it with Bush and do not want anything to do with his "Go it alone Empire." Goss seems to be inserting partisan politics into the top intelligence agency which thrives on varied views and opinions to help create new and fresh ideas in gathering critical intelligence.

One former CIA official is speaking out on the Bush administrations failure to capture and pursue Osama bin Laden. This from Daily Kos quoting Michael Scheuer: "[Bin Laden] secured from a Saudi sheik...a rather long treatise on the possibility of using nuclear weapons against the Americans," says Scheuer. "[The treatise] found that he was perfectly within his rights to use them. Muslims argue that the United States is responsible for millions of dead Muslims around the world, so reciprocity would mean you could kill millions of Americans."

Scheuer says bin Laden was criticized by some Muslims for the Sept. 11 attack because he killed so many people without enough warning and before offering to help convert them to Islam. But now, bin Laden has addressed the American people and given fair warning.

"Their intention is to end the war as soon as they can, and to ratchet up the pain for the Americans until we get out of their region," says Scheuer. "If they acquire the weapon, they will use it, whether it's chemical, biological or some sort of nuclear weapon."

I've read Scheuer's first book, "Through Our Enemies Eyes" and it is fascinating and essential in understanding Osama bin Laden and the Islamic Fundamentalist movement against the Western Hemisphere.

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My Dysfunctional Family and the Holidays

My whole family is breaking apart and I do not really care. I actually think it is best. My parents cancelled Thanksgiving and Christmas this year because no one gets along. There is a division between the siblings over religion and many other things. My two Mormon brothers seem to look down on my sister and I because we have "left the church." Plus, being the youngest in the family I am still treated like the youngest sibling from my oldest brother even though I am going on 29 next month. What's worse is that he now treats me like one of his kids! Then there is this HUGE history between my sister and my oldest brother. They haven't gotten along in years. Someone always seems to end up storming out of the house, pissed off and slamming doors.

I do not really like the holidays anyway so I am not too sad about this. At least in our family they always seem forced and like no one wants to be around each other. Our family is just one of those families that can not have too much time together. We all need and enjoy our space and that is probably for the best.

This whole ordeal with the family right now has convinced me to not have kids. I was about 90% positive that I did not want any kids before this but now I am at 110%. I told my dad that I did not understand why families even exist and he said something like "well, you haven't had a very good example." Damn straight I haven't. Families blow.

Anyway, Happy Holidays from my dysfunctional family to yours!!

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Monday, November 15, 2004

Photographer and Website.

Things with the photographer went really well. He really liked my artwork and I think the pictures he took are going to look slick. I am very excited to get prints made up for everyone who wants them. Hang in there they are almost here. He also suggested that I join this local art league saying that he thinks my artwork would be a great addition. He went on to say that they don't really have anyone in the league who does my unique style of abstract work! Wow, my own niche (blush).

I am slowly getting the website for the prints up and running. Here is what I have so far: http://www.jamesure.homestead.com/main.html

Oh, one more thing. I found an excellent c.d. if you are into Trance/Dance music. It is titled "The History of Trance-1993-2004" mixed by the great George Acosta. It is a mix packed with the greatest of Trance music over the years. I'm listening to it right now in fact. It makes for great blogging music and some chills and waves of Peace, Love, Unity and Respect that remind me of my party days (sigh).

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Sunday, November 14, 2004

Sunday Thoughts.

I am feeling a bit better today. Thanks for the support. Here are a few thoughts for today. I got these off the tea tags from my old green tea. They don't list any authors but here they are:

Whatever you are, you are.
Be proud of it.

There is nothing good and there is nothing bad, but thinking makes it so.

Recognize that the other person is you.

If you cannot see
God in all,
You cannot see God at all.

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Saturday, November 13, 2004

Fear and Loathing and Paranoia.

I am not in a good mood today. I can't quite put my finger on it but I feel like shit. It's like someone just killed my puppy or something. I hate having a mental illness but that's my reality. It's like having this other person move in and take over my brain. And this other person moves in with a depression, crazy thoughts and a shit-load of phobias and fucked up baggage. Everything is getting on my nerves today. The slightest noise or ruffle of papers sounds like fire crackers going on right next to my ear. I should probably take some Ativan and calm my shit down but we are going out in a bit and I can't be all bombed and falling asleep @ 5pm in a public restaurant with my friends. "Hey James, wanna another drink?" JAMES: "Zzzzzzz....What?! Who?! Ummm...huh. Zzzzzzzz"

I hate going out to public places. I always get so paranoid and totally over-whelmed with the stimuli associated with stores and restaurants. Everything is loud, in your face and totally chaotic.This a direct result of the A.D.D and the schizoaffective disorder. I can't screen anything out so I am always being bombarded with sounds and sights and people. Yesterday my mom and I went out to lunch at this local Mexican restaurant and I was so distracted with everyone else talking that I couldn't hear and understand what my mother was saying. It was like I could hear every single person talking and understand what they were saying all at the same time. I felt like I was sitting at this large table where everyone was talking super loud all while my mom was talking. The other thing is that it sounded like these people were all talking two inches away from my ear.

I use to get totally freaked out driving around town thinking the FBI was after me. That doesn't happen so much anymore but I still look in the rear view mirror now and then. I wish that I could trade my brain in for one that didn't take off on me and do its own damn thing.

Whenever I go to stores like Wal-mart I always think that people are looking at me and can get inside my head. I freak out thinking they can read my mind and that I rush out of the store as fast as I can. Plus, I hate the crowds of people that gather in these stores. People push their carts around the store as if they were driving in a NASCAR race and nearly run you over. I feel like we are all ants moving around looking for scraps of food. Humans scurrying around like cockroachs and sometimes it just makes me sick. I just get disgusted with how parasitic we can be sometimes.

I get so goddamn anxious when I know that I am going out somewhere later. Even if it is something fun with people I adore I get all worked up that I won't be able to keep my shit together in front of them and the public. I constantly worry that I am going to loose my lucidity in public some day. Like I'll just trip out and have to get up and walk out the door for no apparent reason.

I went yesterday to see a new therapist but the lady wasn't there in her office when I got there. So I waited around for 15 mintues and then called my wife to ask her what I should do. Well, turns out that the lady had to take some patient to the hospital. Lori had tried to call me en route to tell me so that I wouldn't have to drive the whole way (It's like an hour drive up to Boulder where this lady's office is located). So, anyway. I didn't get the message because I didn't have our new cell phone turned on. I am still trying to get the hang of it and so I missed her message. The thing that pissed me off about it all though was that the therapist lady didn't apologize at all for having to cancel the appointment. God, I get serious shit and billed If I cancel an appointment 30 mintues ahead of time. I would have liked a small apology and maybe a note on her office door when I got there to explain the situation. As it was I was sitting in the little waiting room freaking out wondering where the hell she could be. I was panicing thinking that I was in the wrong office building. Her office is in one of these huge complexes where all the buildings look the same.

Its seems like my favorite thing to do anymore is just sit by myself in silence and zone out. Anyway, that's what's on my mind today. Don't freak out or anything. This is what I deal with on a daily basis and I justed needed to write some of this shit out.

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Friday, November 12, 2004

Radical Christianity.

This is a letter from Bob Jones. He is the radical, Christian university president of Bob Jones University. I thought Christ said to love your enemy? Hmmm...maybe I'm just reading the wrong Bible or maybe the one I read was "liberal." Anyway, take some Tums or something because this letter will make your stomach churn. Here it is:

Dear Mr. President:
The media tells us that you have received the largest number of popular votes of any president in America's history. Congratulations!

In your re-election, God has graciously granted America—though she doesn't deserve it—a reprieve from the agenda of paganism. You have been given a mandate. We the people expect your voice to be like the clear and certain sound of a trumpet. Because you seek the Lord daily, we who know the Lord will follow that kind of voice eagerly.
Don't equivocate. Put your agenda on the front burner and let it boil. You owe the liberals nothing. They despise you because they despise your Christ. Honor the Lord, and He will honor you.

Had your opponent won, I would have still given thanks, because the Bible says I must (I Thessalonians 5:18). It would have been hard, but because the Lord lifts up whom He will and pulls down whom He will, I would have done it. It is easy to rejoice today, because Christ has allowed you to be His servant in this nation for another presidential term. Undoubtedly, you will have opportunity to appoint many conservative judges and exercise forceful leadership with the Congress in passing legislation that is defined by biblical norm regarding the family, sexuality, sanctity of life, religious freedom, freedom of speech, and limited government. You have four years—a brief time only—to leave an imprint for righteousness upon this nation that brings with it the blessings of Almighty God.

Christ said, “If any man serve me, let him follow me; and where I am, there shall also my servant be: if any man serve me, him will my father honour” (John 12:26).

The student body, faculty, and staff at Bob Jones University commit ourselves to pray for you—that you would do right and honor the Savior. Pull out all the stops and make a difference. If you have weaklings around you who do not share your biblical values, shed yourself of them. Conservative Americans would love to see one president who doesn't care whether he is liked, but cares infinitely that he does right.

Best wishes.

Sincerely your friend,

Bob Jones III

I wonder. Now, what would Jesus say? Do you think he'd talk like that? Honestly.
By the way, I found this letter on Talking Points Memo Blog.

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Abortion and Gay Marriage

Yeah, I know. Light conversation huh? It is on my mind though with this election season still bubbling about.

I want to talk about this couple I know. They extremely dislike George W. Bush but they voted for him anyway because they are against a woman's right to choose and do not support "gay marriage." The wife even went so far as to say that she thinks that she would have no problem bringing a child into this world if the child were a result of rape or incest. I was stunned. I said, "What about if the life of the mother was in danger? Shouldn't abortion be legal if for no other reason then that?" She responded by saying that it is rare anymore for a mother's life to be in danger due to pregancy! Then she claimed that some surgeon general had stated such. Well, first of all this may be true in America but what about the rest of the world? What about in developing areas such as Africa were pre-natal health care is often lacking? Besides there are still some women in America who still have complications from pregnancy that threaten their life. What if one of those women was her daughter? Would this lady just sit by and let their daughter die rather then "support" an abortion?

Thennnnn there's the gay marriage issue. Mainly I just do not understand why these two are threatened sooo much by two gay people getting married? How does this affect them? What business is it of anyone who wants to get married? The divorce rate of "straight" marriage is like 60% so its not like the institution of marriage is going to be "tainted" and "threatened" by a group of gay citizens. Personally I feel like opposing gay marriage and the very idea of homosexuality is extreme bigotry. Homophobia is the new brand of racism it seems. Mind your own damn family I say and stop worrying about what other loving couples do in the bedroom. Different strokes for different folks.

This couple was angry with Bush over the Iraqi war, job losses, health care issues, out-sourcing of jobs and several other issues for months. They were leaning towards John Kerry and then they go against everything else and vote for Bush over fear of gay marriage and a woman's right to choose. The world might be on the verge of WWIII thanks to Bush and my parents STILL voted for the guy.

It is beyond frustrating sometimes to try and understand the way people think.

Thursday, November 11, 2004

Paintings and Photography

I am pretty damn exicted (No, not that kind of excited. You'll have to send me a private mesage for that kind of reaction. Seriously though, you can contact me @ jamzer35@hotmail.com to share with me any and all of your erotic stories/details/fantasies and pix..haha).

Anyway, I got an appointment for sunday to take pictures of my paintings in order to produce prints. So, soon you'll all have the chance to own my crappy art in your wonderful homes. Stay tuned for further details. I'll probably set up a seperate site to sell my prints from but I will alert everyone about it and post a link to it from this "open heart" of this blog o' mine. I will probably be selling the stuff for $25 a print. I know its steep but its cheaper then buying the original. I'm not selling my originals for less then a million dollars. Well, maybe not a million but more then $25 THAT's for sure! You might be saying though, "I'm not paying that much because your art looks like ass cheese!" Well, just look at the cost as a donation to keep my mentally retarded ass off the streets.

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Mormon Brothers, Beer and Angst.

I have been feeling more and more alienated from my brothers lately and I want to vent. They are Mormon and I find that brand of religion to be very difficult to understand. I was raised in that church and I also found it to be a kind of "brain washing" cult which I found offensive if not down right abusive. I have since left Mormonism and removed my name from all of their records. This has caused some problems to say the least amongst my Mormon family members. They believe that now I will not be "sealed" or "connected" with them for eternity. So, I guess I'm screwed when I die according to them. Anyway, as you may or may not know the Mormons believe that they are the only true religion on the face of the Earth. Yeah, like I said "brain washing cult."

God I can not even drink a beer around them or most of the rest of my family. ONE beer!! I would even drink it out on the patio or in the garage but NO. I can't even bring a little flask of whiskey with me up backpacking with my brothers. I pulled out the flask a couple years ago to put just a nip into my cocoa and they looked at me like I pulled out a syringe and shot myself up with heroin! I had just hiked all day with a 40 pound pack on my back and all I wanted was a little shot of whiskey in my hot chocolate and somehow that is offending to them. MY GOD!! And do you know what they told my parents when they got back to town? Couldn't they go one week without drinking? DRINKING?! All I wanted was a littlllllle sip in my cocoa to work out some of the aches and pains of a hard day of hiking and they call it DRINKING?!! Not only that but I never, EVER drink in front of them and I thought that by now they would be o.k. with it. Especially up in the middle of no where. I'm gonna flip this one on them. Couldn't they go ONE NIGHT without freaking out by me having a little alcohol?!

It is beyond frustrating and I have never felt more alienated from them as I do now. I feel as though I don't know these people anymore. I thought I knew my brothers and now I see them as hateful, close-minded people. I really do not have any idea where things will go from here because I am not going to change their minds and they are not going to change mine. I guess I'll just have to small-talk with them. I never thought I would have to engage in inane chit-chat with my brothers but here we are.

I can not talk to them about anything. We disagree on religion, politics, sexuality, drugs and alcohol, and over all culture. I guess I'll just talk about nothing through out Thanksgiving. "Wow, look at that cloud out there. It sure is big." "Hmm. Can I have some more gravy?" "I think it might snow tonight."

And people wonder why I want to move up to a cabin in the middle of the mountains.

Cote D'Ivoire, L'Afrique de L'Oust Update

I got this an update on the situation in Cote D'Ivoire, West Africa. For those who have not read my pervious post about the Cote D'Ivoire, I spent 2 years there serving as a missionary for my parents' church. I am no longer associated with that church but I do still have VERY strong connections and ties with the Ivorians and with Africa as a whole. I love all things African you might say lol. For example, my main emphasis when studying history was African history, etc. Anyway, I received this letter today from a friend and thought you all might be interested in reading an update from someone living inside the situation:

This is a letter I received from the Findley Couple who is serving now in Cocody. It explains what is going on currently in RCI.

Just thought I would send out a note to all of you -reassuring you that we are all OK here. All the missionaries are safe in their apartments under orders to remain there. Unfortunately the Mission President flew to Togo the day all this started and he has not been able toget back.Yesterday a vehicle was sent out from the Area Office to pick him up and drive him to Accra, Ghana. When it will be safe to travel back here - who knows. The situation here is serious but calming down. The French are the ones on the receiving end of all the violence. Homes and schools have been destroyed. So it is not prudent for any white faces to show themselves in the streets.

Briefly here is what happened - as we understand it. On Thursday the National forces attacked the Rebel held areas in the north- Bouake, Korogho and Man in the west. They are saying that the north is completely liberated and that the rebels have fled. Unfortunately at somepoint, a projectile landed on the French base and the French responded by destroying all the aircraft belonging to the Ivoirian Military - while it was on the ground.The response from the Ivoirians has been swift and violent. We hear them daily marching down the street next to our apartment complex.The Government and the French and United Nations armies are pleading with the Young Patriots to stop the vandalism and violence, restore calm while the Military do its work of "securing" the city. The French seized the Airport on Saturday but last night opened the roads around the airport to local traffic. Unfortunately, a French helicopter fired into a crowd of civilians on Saturday night and set off a number of grenades - there is A LOT of anger directed at the French and a lot of rumors circulating - like for example that the French have kidnapped the President of the country.The leaders of the country keep repeatedly assuring everyone that all is well, the President is safe and stop the violence. The French have secured the city, but the big question is "What is security when the French are firing on innocent people."Many Ivorians have been killed but we hope today is the starting point of a settling down process. There is a mediator coming in from South Africa and the youth are being asked to line the roads and sing and welcome him. We are optimistic.We ourselves are very safe - our neighbors are very concerned for us - many members have called to see how we are - all is well- we just do not dare go out into the streets. Don't worry - the missionariesare safe. We doubt that it will come to evacuation, but if it does, the UN has established safe houses and safe corridors to transport people. Many French are already hiding in the Hotel Ivoire which is surrounded by tanks, troops and razor wire. There are about 10,000 of them here - so it is certainly not practical to evacuate them all.

Wednesday, November 10, 2004

U.S. Senator Barack Obama

I am so excited about this guy and I am not even from Illinois. I am going to be following him over his career to be sure. God, I sound like some kind of groupie but DAMN I just really believe in this guy. Whenever I hear him speak I get chills and I think that his message is so clear and strong. He is a total breath of fresh air into politics and especially to the democratic party. I must admit that the democratic party has kind of gone stiffer then a well, YOU knowwwww.

Ahem, soooo anyway I think that people like Obama and John Edwards represent the new generation of democrats and I do think it is only a matter of time before we see a President Obama. Whew. Doesn't just sound awesome?! I haven't ever been more excited about a politician then Barack Obama. However, I do not look for him to run for the White House in 2008. Because according to the Chicago Sun Times Obama is not going for the job anytime soon.

Obama: "So look, I can unequivocally say I will not be running for national office in four years, and my entire focus is making sure that I'm the best possible senator on behalf of the people of Illinois. Look, I'm a state senator who hasn't even been sworn in yet," Obama said." My understanding is that I will be ranked 99th in seniority. ... I'm going to be spending the first several months of my career in the U.S. Senate looking for the washroom and trying to figure out how the phones work."

Hehe. All that talent, brains and coolness and he's humble too (swoon). Damn, I should just get it over and find a poster of the man, light some candles and start a shrine. I think he'll run for President in 2012 though and when he does I'll be the first to sign on and support him. I'll probably sell off our cars to help fund this campaign (Oh wait, I need at least one car so I can plaster "Obama 4 Prez." stickers all over it). I think he has the potential in becoming the next (dare I say it) Franklin D. Roosevelt (runs around the room in circles from the excitement and anticipation. Then runs smack into a wall).

Okkkkkkk I better end this post and take some Ativan before I go streaking through the streets in my boxer briefs yelling O-BA-MA!!! O-BA-MA!!!

P.S.-A BIG happy birthday to my dear friend Holly. :)

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I am a bit down today and this kind of made me smile. Posted by Hello

Tuesday, November 09, 2004

Ohio Voter Fraud.

I got this off the Randi Rhodes Show website. Read on. Be shocked, outraged and call your Representatives and Senators. It's time to start talking about the 800 pound elephant in Ohio.
Hold on to something tight, take your tranquilizers because this is going to piss you off:

More Votes than Voters in some Cuyahoga County Preccints

Each precinct in Cuyahoga County, Ohio
Highlighted areas represent 90% (very VERY unlikely) and higher (up to 1160.78%) voter TURN-OUT! 30 are above 100%
Calculated from data on county page - http://boe.cuyahogacounty.us/BOE/results/currentresults1.htm

(Ballots Cast/Registered Voters) * 100 = % turn out.
Ballots Cast SHOULD NEVER be more than Registered, thus % should NEVER be higher than 100%

This amounts to 97,489 EXTRA votes beyond 100% in those precincts! This is just for ONE county!

No further evidence needed - a recount MUST be done - and possibly another national election using ONLY paper ballots, hand counts, and observers making sure all counts are valid. I don't trust these computers AT ALL! We should have the UN observe!

Registered Voters-
Bay Village: 13, 710
Ballots Cast: 18,663
% Turnout: 136.126915%

Registered Voters-
Beachwood: 9,943
Ballots Cast: 13,939
% Turnout: 140.189078%

Registered Voters-
Bedford: 9,942
Ballots Cast: 14,465
% Turnout: 145.493864%

Registered Voters-
Bedford Heights: 8142
Ballots Cast: 13,512
% Turnout: 165.954311%

Walking Down the Middle of the Street.

O.k., so this past weekend was a disaster. Everything went wrong to the point of dropping the spoon on the floor and dropping everything else. It's a good thing that we don't have a baby or I would have probably dropped that too. Speaking of which, the last thing I need right now is a kid. I can barely take care of myself let alone some little munchkin. Anyway, I digress...that's the A.D.D talking straight atcha.

So where were we? Oh yeah...the weekend sucked ass cheese. For starters I was totally put on the spot and embarrassed by a friend in front of people I hardly know. It set off a total wave of paranoia that I haven't felt in awhile. Things just went down hill from there and now I feel like I am sliding back a bit. I think I need to up my Trileptal and I am going to call my pdoc about that today. I thought he should of upped the meds last time we talked and I was right. Here I am running around pissed off one minute and then ecstatic the next. I'll place a call into him right after I call my Senators and Rep's and rant and rave about the election fraud issues.

O.k., Sooooo. The topper for the weekend came when the wife and I were driving home after some shopping. We were driving down this road and I saw two people walking in our direction. The thing was that they were walking in the middle of our lane. The woman was walking on the side of the road but the man was a few feet out in the middle of the lane! So, I figured this guy would move in behind his wife the closer I got. He didn't. He just stayed right in the middle of the road as I came up on them. I had to drive way over into the other lane to avoid them and so I honked at him while I did this. Then the guy actually threw up his hand and looked back at me like I was the idiot!! God I was amazed. I swear sometimes I think that I am the only sane person in this city. Oh wait, I'm not so sane after all. Oh well.

More on Voter Fraud Issue.

A friend of mine provided me with this link to another website documenting problems with the 2004 election. Here is an excerpt from think excellent site:

"The flaws within these machines are well documented. Professors and researchers from Johns Hopkins performed a detailed analysis of these electronic voting machines in May of 2004. In their results, the Johns Hopkins researchers stated, "This voting system is far below even the most minimal security standards applicable in other contexts. We identify several problems including unauthorized privilege escalation, incorrect use of cryptography, vulnerabilities to network threats, and poor software development processes. We show that voters, without any insider privileges, can cast unlimited votes without being detected by any mechanisms within the voting terminal software."

"Furthermore," they continued, "we show that even the most serious of our outsider attacks could have been discovered and executed without access to the source code. In the face of such attacks, the usual worries about insider threats are not the only concerns; outsiders can do the damage. That said, we demonstrate that the insider threat is also quite considerable, showing that not only can an insider, such as a poll worker, modify the votes, but that insiders can also violate voter privacy and match votes with the voters who cast them. We conclude that this voting system is unsuitable for use in a general election."

Many of these machines do not provide the voter with a paper ballot that verifies their vote. So if an error - or purposefully inserted malicious code - in the untested machine causes their vote to go for the other guy, they have no way to verify that it happened. The lack of a paper ballot also means the end of recounts as we have known them; now, on these new machines, a recount amounts to pushing a button on the machine and getting a number in return, but without those paper ballots to do a comparison, there is no way to verify the validity of that count.
Worst of all is the fact that all the votes collected by these machines are sent via modem to a central tabulating computer which counts the votes on Windows software. This means, essentially, that any gomer with access to the central tabulation machine who knows how to work an Excel spreadsheet can go into this central computer and make wholesale changes to election totals without anyone being the wiser. "

And then there's this:

Bev Harris, who has been working tirelessly since the passage of the Help America Vote Act to inform people of the dangers present in this new process, got a chance to demonstrate how easy it is to steal an election on that central tabulation computer while a guest on the CNBC program 'Topic A With Tina Brown.' Ms. Brown was off that night, and the guest host was none other than Governor Howard Dean. Thanks to Governor Dean and Ms. Harris, anyone watching CNBC that night got to see just how easy it is to steal an election because of these new machines and the flawed processes they use.

"In a voting system," Harris said on the show, "you have all the different voting machines at all the different polling places, sometimes, as in a county like mine, there's a thousand polling places in a single county. All those machines feed into the one machine so it can add up all the votes. So, of course, if you were going to do something you shouldn't to a voting machine, would it be more convenient to do it to each of the 4000 machines, or just come in here and deal with all of them at once? What surprises people is that the central tabulator is just a PC, like what you and I use. It's just a regular computer."

Harris then proceeded to open a laptop computer that had on it the software used to tabulate the votes by one of the aforementioned central processors. Journalist Thom Hartman describes what happened next: "So Harris had Dean close the Diebold GEMS tabulation software, go back to the normal Windows PC desktop, click on the 'My Computer' icon, choose 'Local Disk C:,' open the folder titled GEMS, and open the sub-folder 'LocalDB' which, Harris noted, 'stands for local database, that's where they keep the votes.' Harris then had Dean double-click on a file in that folder titled Central Tabulator Votes,' which caused the PC to open the vote count in a database program like Excel. 'Let's just flip those,' Harris said, as Dean cut and pasted the numbers from one cell into the other. Harris sat up a bit straighter, smiled, and said, 'We just edited an election, and it took us 90 seconds.'"

"Any system that makes it this easy to steal or corrupt an election has no business being anywhere near the voters on election day."

If you're concerned about these issues as I am I urge you to call your Senators/Rep's about this issue. Urge them to look into these examples of fraud so that we can know the truth about this election.

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Ten Reasons Not to Move to Canada.

The original article can be found here. This article was written by Sara Anderson for the Common Dreams website and I am reposting it here:

Ready to say screw this country and buy a one-way ticket north? Here are some reasons to stay in the belly of the beast.

1. The Rest of the World. After the February 2003 antiwar protests, the New York Times described the global peace movement as the world's second superpower. Their actions didn't prevent the war, but protesters in nine countries have succeeded in pressuring their governments to pull their troops from Iraq and/or withdraw from the so-called "coalition of the willing."Antiwar Americans owe it to the majority of the people on this planet who agree with them to stay and do what they can to end the suffering in Iraq and prevent future pre-emptive wars.

2. People Power Can Trump Presidential Power. The strength of social movements can be more important than whoever is in the White House. Example: In 1970, President Nixon supported the Occupational Safety and Health Act, widely considered the most important pro-worker legislation of the last 50 years. It didn't happen because Nixon loved labor unions, but because union power was strong. Stay and help build the peace, economic justice, environmental and other social movements that can make change.

3. The great strides made in voter registration and youth mobilization must be built on rather than abandoned.

4. Like Nicaraguans in the 1980s, Iraqis Need U.S. Allies. After Ronald Reagan was re-elected in 1984, progressives resisted the urge to flee northwards and instead stayed to fight the U.S. governments secret war of arming the contras in Nicaragua and supporting human rights atrocities throughout Central America. Iraq is a different scenario, but we can still learn from the U.S.-Central America solidarity work that exposed illegal U.S. activities and their brutal consequences and ultimately prevailed by forcing a change in policy.

5. We Can't Let up on the 'Free Trade' Front Activists have held the Bush administration at bay on some issues. On trade, opposition in the United States and in developing countries has largely blocked the Bush administrations corporate-driven trade agenda for four years. The President is expected to soon appoint a new top trade negotiator to break the impasse. Whoever he picks would love to see a progressive exodus to Canada.

6. Barack Obama. His victory to become the only African-American in the U.S. Senate was one of the few bright spots of the election. An early opponent of the Iraq war, Obama trounced his primary and general election opponents, even in white rural districts, showing he could teach other progressives a few things about broadening their base. As David Moberg of In These Times puts it, 'Obama demonstrates how a progressive politician can redefine mainstream political symbols to expand support for liberal policies and politicians rather than engage in creeping capitulation to the right.'

7. Say so long to the DLC. Barry Goldwater suffered a resounding defeat when he ran for president against Lyndon Johnson in 1964, but his campaign spawned a conservative movement that eventually gained control of the Republican Party and elected Ronald Reagan in 1980. Progressives should see the excitement surrounding Dean, Kucinich, Moseley Braun, and Sharpton during the primary season as the foundation for a similar takeover of the Democratic Party.

8. 2008. President Bush is entering his second term facing an escalating casualty rate in Iraq, a record trade deficit, a staggering budget deficit, sky-high oil prices, and a deeply divided nation. As the Republicans face likely failure, progressives need to start preparing for regime change in 2008 or sooner. Remember that Nixon was reelected with a bigger margin than Bush, but faced impeachment within a year.

9. Americans are Not All Yahoos. Although I wouldn't attempt to convince a Frenchman of it right now, many surveys indicate that Americans are more internationalist than the election results suggest. In a September poll by the University of Maryland, majorities of Bush supporters expressed support for multilateral approaches to security, including the United States being part of the Comprehensive Test Ban Treaty (68%), the International Criminal Court (75%), the treaty banning land mines (66%), and the Kyoto Treaty on climate change (54%). The problem is that most of these Bush supporters weren't aware that Bush opposed these positions. Stay and help turn progressive instincts into political power.

10. Winter. Average January temperature in Ottawa: 12.2°F.

Sarah Anderson (saraha@igc.org) is a fellow of the Institute for Policy Studies.

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Monday, November 08, 2004

Is This the Beginning of the End of America?

This is an interesting article on www.commondreams.org about the great divide that has developed and deepened in America.

I figured I'd post an updated picture of myself. Posted by Hello

The 2004 Election Was Stolen.

Remember the day after the election when I thought that the election was rigged with these new voting machines? Well, Randi Rhodes and Black Box Voting have me totally convinced now. Read this article on the Randi Rhodes website for the details.

Basically there is a very real possibility that many of these machines where rigged to favor President George W. Bush. Talk show host Randi Rhodes is discussing today on her radio show examples of how this could have happened. For example in countries where you have some 70% democrats vs. 30% Republican you have the opposite results. Approx. 70% for Bush and only 30% for Kerry. This from the Black Box website:

SUNDAY Nov. 7 2004: We’re awaiting independent analysis on some pretty crooked-looking elections. In the mean time, here’s something to chew on. Your local elections officials trusted a group called NASED -- the National Association of State Election Directors -- to certify that your voting system is safe. This trust was breached.

NASED certified the systems based on the recommendation of an “Independent Testing Authority” (ITA). What no one told local officials was that the ITA did not test for security (and NASED didn’t seem to mind).

The ITA reports are considered so secret that even the California Secretary of State’s office had trouble getting its hands on one. The ITA refused to answer any questions about what it does. Imagine our surprise when, due to Freedom of Information requests, a couple of them showed up in our mailbox.
The most important test on the ITA report is called the “penetration analysis.” This test is supposed to tell us whether anyone can break into the system to tamper with the votes.
“Not applicable,” wrote Shawn Southworth, of Ciber Labs, the ITA that tested the Diebold GEMS central tabulator software. “Did not test.”

Americans want to know:
Ciber “tested”whether the manual gives a description of the voting system. But when asked to identify methods of attack (which we think the American voter would consider pretty important), the top-secret report says “not applicable.”

Ciber “tested” whether ballots comply with local regulations, but when Bev Harris asked Shawn Southworth what he thinks about Diebold tabulators accepting large numbers of “minus” votes, he said he didn’t mention that in his report because “the vendors don’t like him to put anything negative” in his report. After all, he said, he is paid by the vendors.

There is likely to be more about this in the coming future. I have the feeling that this election saw the most rampant example of voting fraud in American history. You have not wonder...."why would some of these counties use electronic voting machines that could not produce a paper ballot?" I remember way back when I heard about these machines and I just thought, "such machines are ripe to be hacked into or altered. No one has a paper record to prove their vote." Stay tuned to the Randi Rhodes show for more on this breaking story. You can listen to her show via the computer via www.airamericaradio.com You can also listen to her via the web via her personal website www.therandirhodesshow.com

Here's another angle about this voter fraud story from www.commondreams.org

That's all for now.

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Violence in Cote D'Ivoire.

There has been recent violence in Cote D'Ivoire (Ivory Coast) West Africa. Ivory Coast has been split over the past few years between the north and south. The northern cities feel that the southern based government has neglected them. The north has a large Muslim and immigrant population that feels disenfranchised by past "elections." The civil war had been kept in check since French, U.N. and other African soldiers deployed in 2003.

Recently, however, there has been increased tension between the north and the southern government. It now appears that the Ivorian airforce mistakenly killed 9 French soldiers in an attack on "rebel" forces in the northern city of Bouake. In response the French destroyed most of the Ivorian air force. Then mobs of supporters of the Ivorian President Gbagbo roamed the streets of the capital Abidjan looking for French, white and other visitors and immigrants to the West African nation. According to ChinaDaily.com, "The New Forces ['rebels'] warned they would launch an assault if government forces cross into the UN-controlled zone. The head of the New Forces, Guillaume Soro, described the air raids as a 'coup d'etat' and accused Gbagbo of pushing the country back towards war to serve his own political interests." Go here to get the full history and news on this conflict from the British Guardian.

I lived in this country for 2 years as a Mormon missionary for my parents' church. I have since fallen away from the Mormon religion but I still have a strong connection to La Cote D'Ivoire and it's people. The connections I made with some of these Ivorians were family connections and I worry that some of them may not be alive. I have been unable to contact anyone over there for a few years now. There is one of my African brothers living in England but I have not been able to get ahold of him either.

It is difficult for me to read the news out of the Ivory Coast and see pictures of places I have been and know that the people there are living in such tension and violence. I have seen pictures of streets that I have walked down hundreds of times. I have seen pictures of looting in Yamoussoukro (the administrative capital) and that is a village/town where I have spent the most time. Yamoussoukro is also the town where the above mentioned brother and his family live. I hope and pray that this family and every other family in Cote D'Ivoire are o.k. and will continue to be ok. Africa is such a beautiful and stunning place that makes a deep and loving connection with you forever.

I have had hope that the civil war was being reduced and kept at bay with these French and U.N. forces but now the Ivorians are turning on the French. It appears that a full-blown civil war is in the cards for this beautiful, West African country. Anyway, please concentrate some of your thoughts, prayers and energy to these wonderful people (sigh). Thanks for listening.

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Sunday, November 07, 2004

The Sage.

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The sage accumulates nothing
but the more he does for others
the greater his existence
the more he gives to others
the greater his abundance
the Way of Heaven
is to help without harming
the Way of the sage
is to act without struggling

~Tao Te Ching,
translated by Red Pine

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Saturday, November 06, 2004


I know that it is way too early to be talking about the 2008 election but I have to look forward right now. Especially since I can not get into Canada (Calm down...I'm joking Toby. Or am I?) Anyway, I do not want to think about the Bush administration too much today but I will say this. Give them their party and let them cream over their "4 more years." We can sit back and watch them hang themselves with those 4 years. The ball is totally in their court. They have total control over the federal government and no one to blame now but themselves. My predicition is that they are going to royally screw the government up and burn this country down to the foundation. So much so that we should be able to walk into the White House in '08. We will be there to pick up the pieces and rebuild a well-oiled, decent government that actually WORKS for the people instead of against the people. Anyway, enough about the Republican'ts.

Who do I think should run for the dem's in 2008? Certainly not Hillary Clinton. Yeah, she is just too polarizing a person. Too many people have a pajorative opinion of the lady. Also, it seems that America does not want a liberal president and that would be Hillary for sure (As much as I want to see a liberal as president). Although I will admit one reason why I would like to see her win and that is because I would like to see Bill back in the White House. That would make the Republican's go absolutely ape-shit and I would just love to see him become the "First-Gentleman."

O.k., so here is the ticket that I would like to see the dem's run in four years. John Edwards running as president and Sen. Barack Obama from Illinois running as VP. John Edwards should have run as the president this year but that didn't happen. I think though that he will win the primary in 2008. He is a moderate democrat who can appeal to just about every segment of the American population and he is an eloquent speaker. Edwards is the perfect, American example of "rags to riches." And Barack Obama? What's not too like about Barack Obama? He is a first generation American who pulled himself up to become a Senator of the United States of America. Obama himself represents the best of what America has to offer. His father was a goat farmer in Kenya before moving his family to America. Having lived in Africa for a couple years I would LOVE to see Obama in the White House.

This guy Obama(like Edwards) can fire up any crowd with his speeches. His speech at the Democratic National Convention this year was amazing and had me up off the couch clapping my hands with shivers all over. He would also be a great choice for president and I personally think that he will eventually be the first African-American U.S. President. I would love to see Obama run as President in 2008 but I think that he would still need a little more experience such as being VP to Edwards. That being said, I will put my support FULLY behind him should he become the nominee in '08.

Anyway, just a little positive thinking and energy to push us forward into the future. I am finally in the acceptance stage of the grieving process and I am looking forward to 2008. True, it's going to be a bumpy, scary ride over the next four years but we will emerge intact and we will take back our government. Stay strong, united and pissed. Anger is depression put into action.

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Bill and I

You Are a New School Democrat

You like partying and politics - and are likely to be young and affluent.

You're less religious, traditional, and uptight than most Democrats.

Smoking pot, homosexuality, and gambling are all okay in your book.

You prefer that the government help people take care of themselves.

I'd say everything is true except for the affluent part. Bleh.

Friday, November 05, 2004

Purple States.

Some Republicans are claiming that the Democratic party is "finished" due to just barely losing this election. Dont believe this latest dump of bullshit. There were A LOT of people who voted for Kerry in these "red" states and yet conservative fanatics such as Sean Hannity claim that conservatives "dominate" these "red" states.

Well, let's just look at a few of the results of these "red" states. In Colorado (where I live) Bush won with 52% and Kerry gained 47%. This is not exactly Republican domination. Forty-seven percent of Coloradoans voted and support the democrat and these people are being blown off entirely by the Sean Hannity's of the world. New Mexico barely went for Bush with 50% and Kerry with 49% and yet New Mexico is a "red" state. Nevada also barely went for Bush 51% to 48%. Even Utah had some votes for John Kerry and yet are we to ignore that 27% of people? Apparently so if you're a conservative politician or pundit. The same goes for Republicans who live in blue states. Wisconsin for example went for Kerry 50 to 49% for Bush. That is a very slim margin and yet we give the state in totality to Kerry. Minnesota went for Kerry 51 to 48%. Hopefully you are getting my point with all of these numbers. These states are neither "red" or "blue" but rather they are a complex mix between Democrats and Republicans. These states are various shades of "purple." This is why we need to scrap the current electoral college "winner take all" style of elections. We need to adopt a proportional system on a national level. A proportional system would better reflect each person's vote. The numbers would better reflect our mixed and diverse population.

This was another close election and the President does not have a mandate by any stretch of the imagination. Yet he will probably shove things through congress like he does have the massive majority of the country behind him. The country is still just as split and he needs to spend part of this political "capital" in trying to reach out to those 55 million people who were shut out with his re-election. However, I doubt that there will be much reaching out to democrats given the President's statement yesterday during his press conference saying, "I'll reach out to everyone who shares our goals." (shakes head) If that's his example of reaching out then I would hate to see his example of shutting people out. Oh wait, I know that feeling after all. How could I forget living under President Bush the last four years? Anyway, I'm sure we'll have plenty of chance to witness and again feel what being shut out feels like.

It's going to be a longgggg 4 years.

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